alright, here's what you're not understanding about that. you don't just do a few cycles, gain 30lbs, then quit. so many people think they can just do a cycle or two, gain some size, and that's it. here's the truth... once you quit, you'll eventually end up right about where you were when you started. may take several months, may even take a year, but eventually if you stop taking cycles, you will end up back where you started. without the hormonal boost from steroids, how do you think your body will hang onto that extra size? without a continuous supply of what initially put your body past it's limits in the first place, it just can't hold it on it's own. should be common sense, but many people overlook that fact for some reason.
steroids are not an answer to your problems right now. learning about proper nutrition and training is, which you can find out about on this board as well and we'd be more than happy to assist you with all that as well.
as far as not seeing how it could be so bad, here are the issues right now... your bodies hormonal levels are going crazy right now. your test levels at your age are already at the levels of what would be considered a mild steroid cycle. now, by taking exogenous hormones (aka steroids), you'll be shutting your own bodies production down. now, until your bodies hormonal levels begin to level off and calm down (around 20-23 for most men), you DO NOT want to mess with them. shutting them down when they're in such an excited state as they are at your age can cause serious hormonal imbalances, which can cause serious psychological disturbances (rare, but it CAN happen) as well as permanent hormonal shutdown.
now, if your body no longer produces test on it's own, without an external source such as a cycle, you will have NO sex drive, will lose all your gains while off cycles, and will be completely dependent on taking steroids for the rest of your life. even one single cycle can cause this, so don't think your idea of "just a few cycles" will be ok. most likely you'll be ok still, but in all honesty, you may have already thrown your bodies own hormonal balance off.
another concern for taking gear at your age is that right now, you're bone structure is still growing. by taking gear now, you can cause your growth plates to prematurely fuse, causing your bone growth to stop prematurely, which can potentially cause serious damage down the road. i had a friend in school who started taking gear at a very young age and know what? as we all hit growth spurts and kept growing up, he didn't. he stayed at 5' though all of high school and never grew another inch. now maybe you're already as tall as you want to be, but stopping that growth prematurely is a very bad idea for other reasons as well.
you need to learn how to take advantage of your own bodies hormones at this point, cause with how lightweight you are, you're obviously lacking in other areas, and gear should not be used to compensate in other areas that are lacking. as i said, you need to get your foundation down first, then you can get back into gear. you can still make amazing gains at your age without gear. when i first started lifting, i was about 15yrs old, and weighed about 135lbs. through reading, learning, and starting out right, i put on 40lbs in about 6 months. now of course most people at school thought i was on gear, but as i've already said, i never touched them until i was 23. however, i was force-feeding myself all the time, even to the point of nausea oftentimes. it worked though, and those gains were permanent, unlike what you'll get from gear. you can do it man, just read, learn, and grow.
i'm glad to see you're taking our feedback to heart cause as i already stated, we really are only trying to help you, even if it may seem like we're being d*cks in the process. it's kind of like slapping a little brother upside the back of his head for doing something stupid.
