Originally Posted by
Bojangles69
You'll find I'm a little bit too opiniated for my own good when people post things like this.
And I'm not speaking to anyone specific, only to those who think this applies to and may benefit from.
Only because I've been through more shit than anyone my age (and I know a few people). I had the childhood trauma shit. Got involved in some of the worst drugs you can between 16-19. Was sentenced to 7 years in prison. And I'm from a regular middle class neighborhood and come off like your typical fun loving white boy from the burbs. So a lot of people are usually shocked when they get to know me and find out my past.
I was diagnosed with probably everything you can think of. I'm not going to sit here and make a list only for the fact that I think one of the biggest crutches people with a disorder have is the NAME OF THIER DISORDER.
They go see someone who is educated in the field and they say well your bi-polar (manic-depressive) or uni-polar (depressed) or have social anxiety or some psychosis or w/e. And the BIGGEST problem in the world is that people who actually have these disorders don't understand what thier disorder really is. They may understand SYMPTOMS of it, but they don't know wtf "IT" really is or how to get rid of it. So they in a way start to live up to what they think thier disorder should be. And thier REALITY will BECOME thier disorder.
I major in psychology and love it. And I plan on doing therapy and the whole 9 and diagnosing people. A lot of people have the misconception that all a shrink is - is someone who just went to school for a long time and read a lot of books and now they can tell someone specifically how thier fvcked up and even give them a fancy label to refer to thier fvcked up condition with.
Thats just what I call a large scale method of creating mass learned helplessness. And a lot of people don't know thier shrinks past or the fact that theres a good chance they were just as if not MORE fvcked up than you.
As a psychologist you need to learn how to view any situation as objectively as possible. That often requires stepping out of someones issues to take a larger view of thier life and possible roots of thier condition.
But I'm yet to be tought how to step outside this century and look at modern problems in comparison to past prevalences in mental disorders.
So I taught myself all this shit.
The fact is mental disorders are becoming more common, more acceptable, and are as a whole detaching from the many stigmas that use to accompany them.
The FIRST basic fact one is:
ANYONE who is diagnosed with ANY kind of disorder should BE IN therapy RIGHT NOW so they can explore thier "disorder" from an objective stand point and come up with thier own beliefs about thier disorder.
I CAN NOT FVCKING STAND, and I see this shit SOOO MUCH is people who say I'm "depressed" or I was diagnosed with ADD or this or that and THEY ARE NOT EVEN IN FVCKING THERAPY??! WTF!!
"Oh but I'm taking paxil or zoloft or aderal." That DOESN'T MEAN SHIT.
I think the way the whole system works is ridiculous honestly. And even if you are in therapy 40 mins a week if thats all your doing to help yourself you need to open your eyes and stop fvcking yourself in the ass.
You need to realize theres a high probality that you need to take a HUGE responsiblity for claims you make about yourself. If you are depressed any single spare minute you have you should be working on your depression.
You should ask yourself a thousand times a day "Why am I depressed"?
Its not rocket science. Answers will start to come your way like: I don't like my job or my wife or my life or the way I look or the fact I haven't got laid in 5 years. YOU need to really do a research project on yourself.
Once you find these issues you need to WORK on them and dedicate yourself whole heartedly. Get a book on NLP. Learn psychology for yourself. Understand psychology is not to be taken as dogma. There is much room for error in what you think now and what the truth really is. If you have a problem, DO NOT hide from it. Chances are you will die of old age before it does. That is why you must face and kill it when you are still alive.
All I know is I was thrown in a room one day at the most fvcked up point of my life and all I could think about is how messed up *I* was and how I would never make it. And I didn't have my meds, or my family, or a therapist to talk to, or even a tv.
I couldn't leave the room.
I was locked in that room with myself. And I realized the worst thing in that room was ME. Nothing was going to take me away from me but ME. So I sat on the floor thinking of a million and 1 ways to kill myself. I got up and got on the bed and just started shaking from all the shit I was putting MYSELF through.
All I remember is I just snapped and a rush of wind than I was out. I woke up on the floor with someone trying to squeeze food through the hole in the door.
I stumbled over to the food and realized, I just charged the wall head first and tried to snap my neck. But it didn't work at all. And when I was at the worst time in my life, and was more than ready to give up, I couldn't.
I knew I'd be locked in that room 24 hours a day for the next 9 days and that something had to change because this whole thought process in my head just wasn't working anymore. As much as I thought I needed some meds, or a shrink to talk to, or this or that I realized all I needed was me. And for ME to CHANGE the way I think and make it my goal everyday to work on that untill I could live in my head like I wanted to.
So I'm not advising you of anything specific. But I do think a lot of the time the sad fact is as much as we hope someone else can help us out of our pain and sorrow a lot of the time its up to US as INDIVIDUALS to take control of our own lives and to say ok. NOTHING matters but my own health right now. My wife, my dog, my family, I love them all. But they are not whats important right now.
And they would want me to be happy more than anyone in the world but only I (YOU) truely have the power to change MY (YOUR) life. People barely have enough power to make thier own lives they way they really want, so you need to see the energy imbalance and really step up in your own life.
I can't tell you exactly how or what to do. Thats something you'll discover along the way. But what I see too much is the system or society breaking people down so much BECAUSE deep down people really want to believe in thier society or the system or the way things work, and the fact is they just don't (work that is).
I'm not saying a single person should listen to what I write. You can just read it and think for yourself and make your own decisions. But thats just my take on things.
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