My First Jab
…or perhaps I should have titled it “My first Five Jabs” since that’s how many times it took to get the gear in. I’m a well known shot-a-phoebe. Ever since I was 10 years old I’ve passed out when getting a shot. I really don’t understand why; I know it’s no big deal. I’m not afraid of pain and shots really don’t hurt that much. It’s just the thought of a needle penetrating my muscle that I guess freaks me out.
…Anyways it went like this this morning: I went to the gym and did cardio, came home, went into the bathroom, got the gear out, took a shower, got out, took everything out of their wrappers, popped off the top of the glass amp, pulled the Galenika Test E into the syringe through the 22GA pin, switched out that pin with a new 26GA pin, sat on the tub and stopped. I sat on the tub with the pin just above the skin of my right thigh. I sat there, trembling, heart racing and I thought to myself, dude calm down; it will all be worth it. I actually calmed myself down and finally after about 5 minuets in the same position, I did it. I pushed the pin slowly but firmly through the skin and into the muscle. The crazy thing was IT DIDN’T HURT! In fact, I couldn’t even feel it until it was almost all the way in. Once it was in and I started to aspirate, the freak in my brain must have realized “hey…there’s a pin sticking in my muscle” and the lights started to dim. I had no choice but to abort so I pulled it out. I pulled myself together, quickly regrouped and stuck it again just next to where I jabbed it before. Same thing again…had to pull it. The next time I switched legs and tried two more times; still no good. Finally, the fifth time, I sat on the floor so that if I did lose it, I wouldn’t have far to fall. I back to the right side and jabbed, aspirated, and started pushing. I pushed very firm with my thumb and it went in very slow. I could feel the gear going in and it was all I could do not to lose it. After it was finally done I was on my knees with my head on the floor to try to get the blood back into my head. I came close to passing out, but didn’t.
I was surprised that the spots where I jabbed but failed was not sore. The spot I did get the gear in was a little tender. As the day went on, the other spots became a little tender and now they feel the same as where I did get it in. They are all just a little sore; not bad at all.
All in all, this experience was no big deal. I just wish I could convince the little freak in my head (who I seem to have no control over) of that. To those who have never done this but are considering it and don’t have a little freak, I say it’s a piece of cake. To those like me who want to do this but have a mental hang-up, I say bite the bullet and just get through it; you’ll survive.
They say that the first time is the toughest and it’s all down hill after that. I hope they’re right, but I must say that I’m not looking forward to Sunday for the next jab.
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Originally Posted by muriloninja
