I'm starting to go crazy

[InsaneMike]

First of all, to me this is a serious problem, I'm just looking for some other experiences.

I'm getting experienced in cycling and till now i've never had problems. I've always been good in controlling emotions but the last 14wks i've been experiencing some great changes, becides the great gains.

It's like this: I started with testE(500mg) & Deca(400mg), after wk6 I began to get very suspicious about my girlfriend, I started losing trust in her (to give an idea, she never goed out, and really likes just staying around me), but also I felt crazy in love, it was like we've just met..it doesnt sound to crazy but some periods were very extreme, I called her all day to know where she was and with who, and I completely went nuts when she came home late from a family-wedding. I felt like I was really losing it, I had dreams and thoughts about here cheating, and it was unreal because it just doesnt fit here. On wk 9 gyno started developing and I took letro, that calmed me down, but also gave me a little depression.

Now everything was getting to normal, I stopped letro, and continued my long cycle with Sust(750mg) & Tren(400mg), I know...but the good gains made my choice obvious. I'm now running it for 4wks, gains are really going skyhigh, never been this heavy and strong, but the last days I started getting crazy again. There's a girl working at my gym, and she's beautifull, not just looking good but she's a sexbomb, and she's nice to. I've seen here before but I started talking with here one day, and I fell in love.
Now I've fallen in love before, very often...but this isnt normal, I fckn hate it. I think about here all day, when I wake up, when i'm eating, when i'm with my own girl, when i'm sleeping. Yesterday I really had trouble with handling it, I talk with the girl a lot but I don't want to cheat on my girl, so I dont ask here out. And its not that I only want sex with this girl, man I feel like having baby's with here.

Now i'm considering stopping the whole cycle, maybe it doesnt sound to bad, but I'm experienced with emotions, only this is so hard to handle, its chewing my brain away.
On the other hand my gains are so great, I don't want to stop, there's 6wks to go.

Maybe some of you have experienced similar problems.
Damn I miss the cycle's where I just dint care about anything but my physique.

[Bigmax]

sounds like the compounds have your libido thru the roof bro....Now as gar as the cheating bro...dont know what to tell you...Ive been guilty of that before(alot)....if it continues you may want to look into therapy...I'm not joking bro..

[BIGDOGIRISH]

Ya could try chopping your willy off and stick pins in your testes!!
Take a painkiller and pack with Ice for immediate PCT.

Or avoid the girl you fancy if that fails.

[InsaneMike]

sounds like the compounds have your libido thru the roof bro....Now as gar as the cheating bro...dont know what to tell you...Ive been guilty of that before(alot)....if it continues you may want to look into therapy...I'm not joking bro..

That could be it, strange thing is that I'm not really that horny like before, I don't watch porn all day, and it's not that i'm only looking for sex. On the other hand, when I talk to a girl that looks pretty good, I fall for her.

Well it feels better to loose my story, im gonna look after it, if it doesnt fade away I may take further steps.

[InsaneMike]

Ya could try chopping your willy off and stick pins in your testes!!
Take a painkiller and pack with Ice for immediate PCT.

Or avoid the girl you fancy if that fails.

Haha great.

Avoiding the girl I must try.

[xtreme171]

Sounds like you need counseling not test! J/K Bro but i know how you feel i was the same way with my wife but you gotta calm down and decide what you want and whats best for you. I didnt and thats why im going thru a divorce.

[Elusive]

don't fvck yourself and fall for a girl, just because she is nice to you.what if she doesnt feel the same about you. Then your stuck holding your d!ck in your hand. Be careful!!!

[Bigmax]

Not to mention that if you got some of that...you wont feel the same...trust me bro!!!!...it happens to me all the time...first I like them...then love them...then i power ram it....when its all over I hate them!!!.and want to get away asap...lol

[Thug Nasty]

Not to mention that if you got some of that...you wont feel the same...trust me bro!!!!...it happens to me all the time...first I like them...then love them...then i power ram it....when its all over I hate them!!!.and want to get away asap...lol

at "power ram it"

[wilson9d]

Tell the girl you’re attracted to her, and you love your girlfriend. and you don’t want to mess things up at home. She may keep her distance. Then the option may be there later if you break up with your girl. Or if she’s a dirty little hooker you’ll f*** the shit out of her. But whatever.

[mx3]

when im cycle I want to **** every girl I see but I dont. I used to in past relationships and it felt like I was always having to watch my back covering every move I made to make sure I wouldn't get caught. It drove me nuts. but I dont get the emotional attachment your talking about it pure physical attraction. these days I use internet porn to diversify my sex life, its alot easier to get away with. also when im in pct I think my girl is cheating on me accusing her all the time, keeping tabs on her but after a couple months after pct I get back to normal.

[wanabeMASSIVE!]

wow shit, sounds like sumthin i went thru my first cycle i am still a psycho... i flip fr no reason at times!

[Oki-Des]

I know we do not like to discuss anger issues and especially contributing to anything relating to AAS. But I must admit that I never had any problems until trying tren for the first time. It made me stronger than sh*t, but also a little F*ing nuts.

Hang in there. After I stopped doing tren my life went back to normal. I have cycled since with no complications. I personally think tren was simply a little beyond what I was able to control myself on.

[fujitsupalm]

Man, I'm feeling it too, there's been this girl at work who i never found attractive ever before my cycle. Nowadays whenever I see her, I always wanna have a good bonking wit her.

lol... with her encouraging comments such as "wow you're so big and strong" kinda pushing me to think with my diXK rather.

but i am staying strong, dun wanna cheat on ma gal...

[green22]

dont know what to say bout all that. Steroids have never made me act or feel any different.

[madmax1974]

if you are happy with your girl, just avoid the other women and try not to think with your manhood, cause its just all the extra hormones you have going, i think that almost all of us go through something like this while on a cycle.

[intensityfreak]

it sounds like someones a sucker for love. man just chill. scientist say that aas don't make you crazy its already their. its mind games. i just am a horny bitch so i always wanna fu..k
but i controll it with my favorite porn star, yea she keeps me satisfied. plus if love your girl as much as you think you do. in your mind you should think she the pretties girl in the world and that nobody can compare to her. keep tellin your self shes way prettier and can't compare. it works.

[kostakv]

well your scn is insane mike, and your title of this post is going crazy, maybe you should just chill on the steroids.

[rager]

Sounds like you need mental health counseling

[tadpoleboyy]

i know how u feel, this happens to me sometimes. I got a little emotion / jealous on cycle once, until i started letro for gyno. Letro really turned me into an emotionless rock. So i assume it has something to do with estrogen, which would explain why most women are fvucking crazy and jealous all the time. You should just run a little letro and see if that calms u down.

[Jfew44]

Man I feel like that all the time anyways. Curious to think what it'll be like when I start my first cycle??

[reck]

this post with that name... lol sorry but i thought it was a little funny

[InsaneMike]

Good to hear the reactions, yeah I'm seeing now that it's just the hormones going crazy. I normally controlled those, but this tren, man it's crazy. makes it much harder to control.
But today I saw the girl, only it din't make me that crazy anymore, maybe because I know the cause.
But still want here baby's .

[BuffBuffalo]

You want to have a what with her? I would calm down on the baby wishing if I were you. LOL

[inky-e]

Dude I Kinda Relate,during A Cycle And After Losing A Ton Of Weight I Started ****in Around,i've Been Married Over 20 Yrs,the Women Were Giving Me Alot Of Attention And I Acted Out In That"way".long Story Short My Wife Found Out!the Sh.t Hit The Fan And I Almost Lost My Marriage And Family.my Wife And I Worked Through It And Stayed Together,on The Other Hand The Bitch I Was Bangin Went Psycho On Me And Started Some Shit With My Wife,ultimately My Ol Lady Went To The Bitch And Beat Her Ass!it Wasa Crazy!i Don't Blame Anthing Or AnYone But Myself,roids Had Nothing To Do With It,i Made A Really Bad Choice!believe Me When I Say The Grass Is Not Always Greener,sometimes We Don't Appreciate What We Have Until We Lose It Or Are On The Brink Of Losing It.i Won't Be So Bold As To Say It'll Never Happen Again,because I Have A Short Memory Span For Pain!but I'll Tell You I Learned A Great Lesson,theres Alot Of Effed Up Crazy Bitches Out There So Be Careful....no Offense To Any Bitches Reading This!

[seattleironpumper]

Bottom line is you will get through this, its how you maintain, and hold your composure that will tell all................good luck bro,,,,,,my best wishes......and i have been where u are!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[theboffs]

Man I feel like that all the time anyways. Curious to think what it'll be like when I start my first cycle??

Me too mate, lets hope it doesnt get worse eh!

[DCB83]

I'm going through the same thing right now. Im on tren for the first time and it is fvcking with my head big time. Im so suspicious of my gf all the time, I have these crazy fantasies of me catching her banging another guy. It really got to the point where I would look through her cell phone when she goes to bed and check her call/msg history to find something suspicious. And I found nothing. I kinda feel like a little bitch on pms.Its so funny but scary at the same time.Hang in there, i know im trying to.

[meathead320]

Well, I am not of the school of thought where I would think that all AAS are 100% benign mentally.

I do not agree with stupid ideas like “roid rage”, unless it is hemorrhoids raging from Squats.

However, with that being said, I do think that “roid dick head” is real, sometimes. Not in all users, but in some, clearly.

Think about it for a minute.

These are hormones we are using right? Well, the highest concentration of androgen receptors is in the brain, and the genitals. So those sites are getting effects.

There are several effects I have noticed, easily, in myself and others.

1. Confidence, lots of it.

2. Competitiveness again, a good thing

3. Assertiveness, you are more likely to voice up if you feel you are not being treated with respect. This does NOT include violence, but more of a “hey dude, shut up, that was uncalled for…”

4. Libido, this is double edged. It depends on your mental discipline. I suggest jerking off, a lot, if you don’t want to cheat on the wife or GF. If you know you will be out screwing around, and you have not been with your GF long, you may want to break it off with her first.

5. Territoriality, you can get paranoid that another male may want to mate with your female, simply. This, oddly enough is one of the more common, and least known mental effects. You need to chill here. If you cannot, then do your PCT, and stay off of AAS.

6. I’m in loooove. No, your in LUUUUST. There in lays the difference. You are NOT in love. Love is caring for another’s well being. Lust is that heart pounding “got to be with her at all costs”. Keep that in mind, go home, and beat the meat. Why do you think my handle name is “meathead?”

[Sculpture]

Yo Insane mike,

Both Deca and Tren make me crazy like that too, I think its the progesterone since its found in those 2. I feel calm with test and estrogen in me and then throw in some progesterone, from deca or tren in a cycle and i get mental over my girl etc. Remind yourself constantly not to do anything impulsive or make any serious decisions when yer felin it bro, it's not real, those feelings are a lie, if you tough it our you'll go back to being fully sane and you will have gotten some great gains. peace

[InsaneMike]

It's great to hear i'm not the only one, i'm reminding myself this everytime I feel i'm getting crazy ideas.
Also trying to avoid to much contact with girls, yeah it's really lust, cause every girl that smiles at me I fall in love with.

This is just all part of the learning proces.
Still all worth the gains, and strength is crazy!

[RBD85]

Well, I am not of the school of thought where I would think that all AAS are 100% benign mentally.

I do not agree with stupid ideas like “roid rage”, unless it is hemorrhoids raging from Squats.

However, with that being said, I do think that “roid dick head” is real, sometimes. Not in all users, but in some, clearly.

Think about it for a minute.

These are hormones we are using right? Well, the highest concentration of androgen receptors is in the brain, and the genitals. So those sites are getting effects.

There are several effects I have noticed, easily, in myself and others.

1. Confidence, lots of it.

2. Competitiveness again, a good thing

3. Assertiveness, you are more likely to voice up if you feel you are not being treated with respect. This does NOT include violence, but more of a “hey dude, shut up, that was uncalled for…”

4. Libido, this is double edged. It depends on your mental discipline. I suggest jerking off, a lot, if you don’t want to cheat on the wife or GF. If you know you will be out screwing around, and you have not been with your GF long, you may want to break it off with her first.

5. Territoriality, you can get paranoid that another male may want to mate with your female, simply. This, oddly enough is one of the more common, and least known mental effects. You need to chill here. If you cannot, then do your PCT, and stay off of AAS.

6. I’m in loooove. No, your in LUUUUST. There in lays the difference. You are NOT in love. Love is caring for another’s well being. Lust is that heart pounding “got to be with her at all costs”. Keep that in mind, go hope, and beat the meat. Why do you think my handle name is “meathead?”

good post.... for a meathead!

[meathead320]

good post.... for a meathead!

thanx :soapbox: