I need to vent so here goes......last year I got into a sick relationship with this bitch...I am married so it was wrong from the get go...fast forward...my wife finds out!! .....WE've been married over 20 yrs.....I break it off with the bitch and my wife says we will work through it. The night I broke it off the bitch calls my wife and threatens her and says some really ****ked up shit to her. So my wife tells me to take her to where the bitch was...and I did...my wife beat the crap out of the bitch...thats it..end of story...or so I thought...before i forget I gotta tell ya that I met the bitch at an N.A meeting, I'm in recovery and thats where I go to stay clean. Now.....three weeks ago the bitch sees me at a meeting and then later she calls me..blocking her # because she knows I probably wouldn't pick it up. She goes on to tell me that she's still in love with me and that her boyfriend is too insecure, especially about me. He always asks questions about me and so on. Then she tells me she wants to get together for sex...I said no...and reminded her of how things ended and hung up. A week later I'm at another meeting and her boyfriend kinda disrespects me...at the end of these meetings the person running the meeting asks another person in the circle to close the meeting..usually with the serenity prayer...so the boyfriend points his finger at me and says..."hey you...yeah you...I don't know your name..close the meeting"....so I did...now its obvious he knows my name because he's obsessed with me thru his insecurities....so...in a form of retaliation as I walked out of the room and as I was passing by the bitch,,,I said to her..." I see you never made it to the gym"...it was a jab at her cause she's gotten fat..I know it was wrong..but I was pissed...anyway...outside she asks me what I meant..I told her to forget it it was nothing...RIGHT!!..I knew she would be affected by what I said because she's also insecure. So I'm talking to friends outside and I look in and see her telling her boyfriend what I had said..so I don't think much of it cause he's a little punk and if it came down to it ..I'd snap his neck in a minute!,..So..I get on my bike and am still kinda talking to a friend and the boyfriend comes and stands next to me and my friend , he says nothing...he had ample time to make move or say whatever ...so I start my scoot up and leave. A little while later a friend calls me and says that the boyfriend was freaking out..telling people " He doesn't know me..I'll stab him in the neck""...and the bitch was also going on and on...anyway I thought for an instant on going back and fukking him up....but I didn't. I have alot going for me and also have alot to lose. I have a nice home, great wife and two beautiful children, ans I also have my freedom. A few days pass by and I'm at another meeting and they are both there..this is a huge meeting with100 + people in an auditorium. Towards the end of the meeting...I notice her and then I notice him ..they were sitting at different ends of the front row. I immediately fixated on him like a freakin rabid pitbull...I remember myself just rocking back and forth looking at him building up my anger...I made a decision to get him! Then all of a sudden the bitch, who had noticed the way I was looking at him, goes to him and hands him her grandchild, an infant!! Motherfukker!!! She hands him a baby!! She knows I'm not gonna hit a guy with a fukkin baby in his arms! As she handed it to him she said something to him and they both looked my way. My Bro Tim Dogg was there next to me and he kept telling me it wasn't worth it, reminding me that I was surely gonna wind up in jail or worse. So Tim and another friend escorted me to my scoot and made sure I left without incident. That night I decided I was going to hit other meetings where I knew they wouldn't go...AA meetings. So for the last couple weeks I've been going to meetings at this place and have been doing great. I've been in good spirit and actually very serene. You know the saying...out of sight out of mind. So tonight I', m at the new place with Tim Dogg, just sittin there listening to the "message"..and who do you think walks in??? YUP!! The fukking bitch and the dude!! I couldn't fukking believe my eyes, she's pushing a baby stroller so I look at the stroller than my eyes catcth the person pushing it...and it was her!!!!Motherfukker!!!! And right behind her is the little fukk! As soon as he saw me.. he gets his phone and starts texting someone...I don't know who..nor do I care. But in an instant my serenity is blown and I'm in full blown anger bordering on rage! Tim says "lets get out of here"...so we leave. We're outside pretty much in disbelief of what just happened. My new found sanctuary has been disgraced by that kunt! We figured maybe someone had seen me at the new place and told her, cause I know she doesn't go to AA, she goes to NA...why was she there? My gut tells me that she is trying to bait me into hitting the guy. I spoke to my sponsor and he agreed that its a possibility that she wants to see me in jail or prison, away from my family...she IS a sick and vindictive kunt, and remember, she got a beatdown from my wife, so she may want to get even in this way. IDK , I also believe that if this guy really wanted a piece of me. he would have made his move that night that I made the comment about the fat bitch, but remember he waited till I had left to start talking shit, he kept his mouth shut when I was there. My sponsor told me that its gonna be inevitable that I'm gonna run into these people at meetings from time to time..and I shouldn't have to leave because of them, he's right, but I'm a sick angry and fukked up man, plus I'm on juice (test and tren) and I could easily snap!! But I won't...I've decided that I'm gonna just keep doing what I'm doing, staying clean and sober...go to my meetings...and if they show up...ignore them. If he wants to get down..let him make the first move so its self defense and there will be witnesses to it. I'm also not gonna turn my back on him cause he IS an addict and not to be trusted. Anyway I'm confident in my asss kicking ability that if he were to make a move ..I'd literally kill him with my fist and feet and snap his little neck! WOW...I feel a little drained right now, but I'm home with my family and thats the most important thing in my life! I can't let other people's insanity become mine...I've had some of the most dangerous men in the world try to take me out in the past...and I've managed to stay alive and moving forward..so I'm not gonna let this insignificant little asshole take up anymore space in my head...thats it...fukkem!! Plus she told me my dick is much bigger and I fukked her 10 x better than he can!!hahahaha Its all good!
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Originally Posted by JiGGaMaN
lol no seriously,respect to you in keeping your cool like that,i struggle with shit like that
