basically just found out the mother of my child and gf of 5 years had sex with a cooworker 1 night after work about 6 months ago and its tearing me apart inside, my mind is spinning and just feel like my life is over. We have been looking at wedding places and I bought her ring last month and was waiting for the right time, and we got into an arguement about the guy, cause I found txt messages from him (6 months ago) and basically whenever we would get into a fight I would bring it up asking if she did anything which she always denied. Well, finally last night she just broke down and told me the truth, saying that she went to his house to talk cause we got into an arguement he was just listening to her crying and rubbing her back and she said he started kissing her and she said no at first but then just went along until he actually started having sex for a couple minutes and she got upset, he stopped and apoligized and she said she left. I just want to wring his ****in neck cause me and her are both 27 and this dude is 40 and just completely took advantage of the situation telling her "he's probably cheating on you" and stuff like that.

Anyway thats my rant and im on trt and I added additional test e so im totaling about 400mg week plus 70mg tren a every 36hrs and I was hoping to somehow get over this whole thing because I do love her and we have a kid together and were trying to get pregnant now plus get married.

Should I go back to original 200m trt dose, start taking arimidex or nolva, or clomid?