Blood work results... need help!

[pepous]

Hello,
this are my hormone levels... I am OFF cycle.

name - Value - ranges
albumin 53.7 <35-53>
estradiol 74 <0-160>
total TST 46.26 <5-30>
free TST 817.62 <163-847>


But.
I feel on 250mg/week of TST enanthate amazing and when I am off I feel like a crap and depressed.

Also I dont have body hair or beard, And I look younger..

What is my problem?

[pepous]

I should feel like on the top of the world but I dont!!

I feel depressed..


Help

[pepous]

bump

[elpropiotorvic]

Pepous. T is not everything that will make u feel happy, if nit there would not be teen suicidals, you look young because u are young , and about the facial hair man u are lucky there are guys that need to shave twice a day, and end up removing it by laser. Hair and muscles will not make u a man. Look up until 6 months ago I had such a little moustache that I could get it with tweezers, and don't have a beard.

If there is something that you think is lacking in your life u can tell us we will talk to you and provide u with our experiences or similar situations. But steroids are not anti-depressants and quite frankly man being a young healthy human being u have a lot to be thankfull and to be happy for and to enjoy ur life.

If there is something bad that you are going through we can talk, u can talk to other people as well even a pro( BTW IM NOT saying that u are crazy I've seen many professionals for different reasons)

let us know what troubles u

I'll tell u what u can do to help u feel better, for starters a workout, sex, cheat meals( maybe carb deprived), and try to find everyday 10 things that make u happy or 10 positive things about ur day , 10 new each day , and I guarantee u will feel better.

[pepous]

yeaa
one year I did researches about testosterone and my feeling, but I was wrong, my problem is elsewhere and I absolutely dont know where. :-(

I did many blood works that cost many USD...

I am like baby, I am very shy all looks like testosterone problem but it isnt.


Really dont know why I feel so good on testosterone and so crapy when I am off. my testosterone is very hight , maybe abnormal....

Thank you bro

[lovbyts]

Maybe your estrogen levles are also high. Look into that.

[pepous]

my estradiol is in optimal range .... can you explain what do you think?

my estradiol is 74 rages <0-160> so optimal

correct me

[.EA.]

I should feel like on the top of the world but I dont!!

I feel depressed..


Help

Have you ever thought of clinical depression? If you're depressed, Testosterone can make it worse.

I know, I'm Bipolar. Testosterone makes me feel even more invincible and able to do anything during my manic and hypomanic highs, but the scale goes both ways. You extend one end, you automatically extend the other. When I'm a little bit down (due to my meds however I don't really crash that much) Testosterone actually makes it worse.

It makes me restless in a bad way, not the hypomanic restless way. It's a very bad restless where I'm dragging myself just to keep going. Life sucks hard during these times, and without proper chemical stabilization (B vitamins for instance), I can't even crack a smile.

However there is always a way. Remember that. These times I drag my ass to the gym and go for a 15 minute run to stimulate my Serotonin. After I feel a lot better. Maybe not like how I feel when I'm hitting the other end of the spectrum, but at least I actually care about the world.

Look into it. You may (and probably) have some sort of a chemical imbalance like Depression. Steroids, like all other drugs, are not the answer.

You're trying to cure the symptoms instead of curing the root of the problems. That can make things a lot more complicated and worse, since you're adding more values to the equation, if you know what I mean. In the end you may be left with a longass equation where you have no clue what part is causing the problem at which time. That's a VERY bad situation to be in.

Get yourself checked out. There is nothing wrong with admitting that you may have a condition. And if you do, don't try to hero it out. Get help.

Why use a screwdriver when you can use a drill? You know what I'm saying bro?

[elpropiotorvic]

Pepous, try meditation man, it will help, it takes time, but u will definitely go to the root of the problem this way, changing the way you percoeve the world for good is going to help u feel better, go get urself cheked and tell this to a competent doctor( some of them are real dumbass)

Good luck man hope u bring good news next time

[pepous]

To be honest I surrender to my life. I am thinking about bad things.

Tomorow I will try proviron which can kick me in but to be honest I dont believe.. next my step is going to gym 3 week and eating 15 000 KJ daily... becouse when I am doing this I feel like on steroids.