
Originally Posted by
forrest_and_trees
I'm one of those who's just grateful to have found an answer after so many years. I'm 42 and it's been nearly 20 years now that my life has been adversely affected by LowT. However, I only learned I had it a year ago. At that time I too went through the whole range of emotions. I was devastated, angry, p!ssed off, hurt, etc. I too wonder just how such a thing could have happened. I even began to blame myself. Why me? What did I do wrong? What did I do to deserve this? And then I realized, it's not my fault. Nor was it my fault for all the things that I resented about myself over the years. It was the LowT all along. Oh well, sh!t happens. I suppose it could be genetic, environment, or something brought on by trauma. The truth is, most of us may never know. I lost quite a bit to this affliction, but here we are now. I'm looking at this as an opportunity to live the life I was denied. Most people never get a second chance. I'm just grateful to have mine. The worst thing any of us could do is get hung up on the why, and let it prevent us from living out the rest of our lives. Welcome to the site, you're among friends here. We're all in the same boat and no one is going to judge you. As you're likely finding out, living with hypogonadism is about more than taking testosterone. It's a pretty complex process and the key is dialing in the regimen that's right for you. Use the resources available here and find your plan. Like you said, it does get easier over time, just hang in there. Best of luck!