Need Help NOW!!

[mrfixor]

let me start with this: im 45years old. i was needing some help to get back into shape, mentally and physically. so i started my first cut cycle about 6 mths ago. i have an aquantance from the gym who hooked me up with everything i needed.
anivar 50mgs a day
trenbolone 200 mgs week
test prop 100 mgs eod
hgh 1 iu daily
10 week cycle
no pct - my aquantance said i shouldnt need it.

all went very well, lost fat, gained muscle felt incredible
took 5 weeks off meds but still in gym
decided that went so well i would do a bulk cycle thru the winter and then cut again come early spring. so i went back to my source and got a new cycle.
anadrol for 2weeks
deca 400 mgs per week
dyna tabs 50 mgs per day
hgh igf2 lr3 -1 iu day
test prop 150 mgs eod
started great, showing great, feeling like a bull in heat!!!

my source told me that at my age i could probably get my test from a t-clinic or my doc. so i went in had blood work done. i leveled with the doc, told him everything i was doing. he said ok as long as i felt ok. bloodwork showed my test was low, so my doc gave me test cypianate and said the i should keep up with 3 shots a week at 100mg per shot. still feeling great, bull in heat, wife loves my libido.
so i went back in a month for blood work again. now test is way too high. doc says cut it back to .75mgs 3 times a week.

about this time my stress level and anxiety goes thru the roof. i have stopped everything now. yes cold turkey. its been about 4 weeks. my anxiety is terrible. i cant hardly sleep due to it. my world seems upside down!!
i cant seem to take anything to calm down, it all freaks me out!!! my body functions are even out of wack. i need some advice please, maybe pct or get back on test only. before you vets tell me how i shouldnt have done this or i should have read more. just remmember you started somewhere too. Can some one give me some kind of advice not just an ass whippin.
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update: it sounds like im definately in a crash! remmember im already off for 4 weeks: is it too late to take an AI or serm, from what ive read, they only block while im dosing. Do yall recommend getting back on test and then slowly coming down or pct (nolvedex)????????
By the way thanks for any advice, i didnt know where else to go!

[baseline_9]

Well do you want to be on TRT or not?

[FuzzyPeaches o.O]

Well do you want to be on TRT or not?

^x2.

[Dont wanna be old]

After taking the artificial test your body will be out of sync .
Surprised after first cycle you didn't crash . Time in between might be less than you recall .
I didn't see any AI or HCG anywhere in your story .
You need to go with doctor's advice . Can not stop meds without a plan .
If your not going to follow doctor's advice then you might research PCT .

It will take a week or more to get body close to normal .
Not sure how to help
Good luck
Dont wanna be old

[jla1986]

Always have a plan. You were on a decent amount of stuff for only your second cycle. Your own bodies natural test had prob all ready shut down when you up and quit. You should of followed docs advice and start cutting back on everything instead of stopping everything.

[mrfixor]

what is trt?? sorry im new to all this.

[SlimmerMe]

what is trt?? sorry im new to all this.

testosterone replacement therapy
glad you are already on this thread.....