Ajaxs post is uneal. Like others I feel its my story. Here is my question thow, I am not looking to get big. I now most of you want to throw something at me but its the truth. I am 6 ft 4 and I feel the more weight on my joints. I just want to get lean and get my strenght back. I have been laid up for 3 years now and have lost total controle. Last time I was at pain doctor I ask him for advise on how to heal some old wounds. I thought he told me HGC. I have since figured out that was not right. I still had the IV in my arm and I prob was out of it. Since I have learned he ment HGH. After talking to a local lifter he thought I should throw a little deca into my bad shoulder at the same time. Any thoughts on what you would do. At least after reading Ajaxs post I know there is hope hear if I read enough and ask enough questions. THANKS