I recently found this site. I wish I'd found it years ago. Here's my intro.
I'm 51. Seven years ago I was terribly run down. I was a fit endurance athlete but I could barely walk up a flight of stairs. I was really depressed. Went to the doc who did blood work and found low T (low end of normal range). Doctor's theory was that job stress was causing it. I wound up on 8 squirts of 1% Androgel. That worked fine but after a year I felt I should be better and I didn't want to be on TRT. So the next spring I tried to ease off, without much success. I tried it each spring/summer and the best I could do was 6 squirts and even then I could tell it affected my athletic performance. (T levels generally around 400). Last fall I decided I really wanted off and no longer had a stressful job so I got a recommendation for a local expert doc who put me on Clomid and Anastrozole. That was horrible- low T (250-350) and when he doubled the Clomid after three months, also high E. Suddenly I could understand chick flicks but I had no interest in sex. I gave up after 5 months and went back to Androgel.
Reading here it sounds like once you're on TRT, you're stuck on it for life. I wish my doctor had told me that at the beginning although I'm not sure what else I could have done. I wouldn't have messed around trying to get off it if I'd known it wouldn't work.
I went back to 8 squirts of 1%. Two months ago I switched to 1.62%. Doc prescribed 4 squirts saying that it's absorbed better so it should be equivalent. I'm sluggish and depressed and have low libido. Got my test results and I'm at 294 (this lab gives 129-767 as "normal" for 50 and over). I've had a couple instances of sudden severe depression, which has happened at other times I've been low. It's truly awful- you know that life is never ever going to get better and you'd kill yourself if only you could get up off the floor. I have an appointment tomorrow. I'm going to ask for more of the 1.62% stuff or go back to 1%.
These labs did not measure E but did check TSH (ultrasensitive) which was 0.02 u/ml on a 0.34-4.00 normal scale. Not sure what's up with that either.
Should I ask for HCG? Does it have significant benefits other than reversing testicular shrinkage (which I'm resigned to at this point. It's the least of my problems).
Since my Clomid/Anastrozole experience I have not felt as good as before, either athletically or libido-wise. Could it have damaged me permanently?