when i had to make that decision it was not easy at all. BUT it was necessary and unavoidable. i didnt react the way i thought i would. we were supposed to get married and had a home about 75% complete when i found out.
i knew living with the knowledge was not going to happen. i wished it wouldnt have happened as did she, but once the bullet leaves the barrel there is no stopping what comes next. as a man i could not look myself in the mirror every day knowing my woman had been with someone else. i knew this to be a fact. it sucked.
it is one of those benchmark situations that contributes to the definition of who you are. having to give something up u love for principles u know are uncompromising is brutal. especially when ur the one in control. i learned a lot about myself from the experience as well as a lot about the potential of people u think u know and love. i would not change it. i am stronger because of it.
