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    I apologize....

    I haven't been here much and apologize to those sending msg's; myself not replying.

    Been going through a stressful breakup with an emotionally abusive person....and unfortunately...when someone starts to abuse a drug...seems the drama never ends.

    20lbs later...and unfortunately skinny....trying to find my sanity again.


    Thanks Times Roman....you have no idea how your words have kept me going for the past month.

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    Glad to have you back and that you are threw the worst!!!

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    Nice to have you back Kawi! I'm sorry to hear about your situation and wish you the best.

    You've been missed.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Kawigirl View Post
    I haven't been here much and apologize to those sending msg's; myself not replying.

    Been going through a stressful breakup with an emotionally abusive person....and unfortunately...when someone starts to abuse a drug...seems the drama never ends.

    20lbs later...and unfortunately skinny....trying to find my sanity again.


    Thanks Times Roman....you have no idea how your words have kept me going for the past month.
    Glad to see you back. I know from personal experience how hard it can be. It's easy to look in from the out side and say you should have just left but no one knows until they have been there. I went thought it for 2+ years everything imaginable and some not so much.

    Keep yourself healthy and sane, you cant help the other person, they need to find their own way and will only bring you down more.

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    The world never seems short of an insecure control freak or two.

    How have you managed to end it, if you dont mind my asking?

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    Quote Originally Posted by Flagg View Post
    The world never seems short of an insecure control freak or two.

    How have you managed to end it, if you dont mind my asking?
    I gave him numerous warnings regarding his outbursts...saying I won't put up with it...and well...enough was enough. My tenants were moving out...and I guess someone knew I'd need my place again. And...I just said...I'm moving out. Lets try it this way...living seperately. But...he chose cocaine....and often; with his ex who ran him into debt...and took everything from him. She's a user as well.

    but...he plays the drug user games....sobers up...miss you...love you...want a life that I can have with you and not her...than she manipulates him that I'm bad...mean...and don't forget...I'M the one who left. And the nasty msg's start...saying I cheated....I've been using constantly...just self perceiving what HE'S actually doing.

    I must say...I'm more disappointed in myself...letting someone do that to me...and falling for it.

    Thanks lovbyts...I appreciate it....

    I stick to hanging out with my furgirl....training Muay Thai....and trying to get out so not to let the mind wander....

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    No apologies necessary in my mind. Life throws us curves. The cool thing is the board is always here . Welcome back and all the best Kawi.

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    Hi Kawigirl You've been missing since I joined, but I wanted to say that I'm glad you're back on here, back on track with your life and staying strong.

    I know it can't be easy, but you're doing the right thing and it will get easier as time goes by.

    Hang in there!

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    Quote Originally Posted by twitz View Post
    Hi Kawigirl You've been missing since I joined, but I wanted to say that I'm glad you're back on here, back on track with your life and staying strong.

    I know it can't be easy, but you're doing the right thing and it will get easier as time goes by.

    Hang in there!
    Thanks fellow Albertan!!!

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    Quote Originally Posted by Kawigirl View Post
    I gave him numerous warnings regarding his outbursts...saying I won't put up with it...and well...enough was enough. My tenants were moving out...and I guess someone knew I'd need my place again. And...I just said...I'm moving out. Lets try it this way...living seperately. But...he chose cocaine....and often; with his ex who ran him into debt...and took everything from him. She's a user as well.

    but...he plays the drug user games....sobers up...miss you...love you...want a life that I can have with you and not her...than she manipulates him that I'm bad...mean...and don't forget...I'M the one who left. And the nasty msg's start...saying I cheated....I've been using constantly...just self perceiving what HE'S actually doing.

    I must say...I'm more disappointed in myself...letting someone do that to me...and falling for it.

    Thanks lovbyts...I appreciate it....

    I stick to hanging out with my furgirl....training Muay Thai....and trying to get out so not to let the mind wander....
    People like that have manipulation down to a fine art. He cant control you how he wants you to be, which is where the big issue lies. I feel sorry for the next person to fall under his grip once you are gone, but unfortunately, that's not your problem.

    Cut all your ties with this parasite. He's probably done a good job of sucking your self esteem, or has tried to.

    I honestly cannot feel bad enough for you. Im not trynna be "that sympathetic guy" or patronising, I just know what that must be like for a woman to go through.

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    Hey girl... if you want to grab coffee or some real food again let me know...

    Maybe, just maybe, for some added motivation you could join the "most improved" contest starting next week. 90 days to prove what your made of. I signed up to whip myself back into shape, you can come train with me if you feel like punishing someone..

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    Just returning the favor baby girl. You saved my sorry ass not too long ago, if i remember right.

    It's nice to have people watching out for you.

    And I was wondering if you might come back for a bit? Helps keep your mind off your troubles.

    You know where I'm at....

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    Quote Originally Posted by Knockout_Power View Post
    Hey girl... if you want to grab coffee or some real food again let me know...

    Maybe, just maybe, for some added motivation you could join the "most improved" contest starting next week. 90 days to prove what your made of. I signed up to whip myself back into shape, you can come train with me if you feel like punishing someone..
    Most improved...I need muscle now C....I've lost 20 lbs and 3 sizes cause of assmunch! You know how it is...appetite is so hit and miss...
    And I just get those sick butterflies when he tries to contact...or scared I'll run into him....

    He came to the gym one day after 3 days of binging...omg...shit show!

    I could use some improvement on my jabs and crosses though....I'm like a T-Rex in Muay Thai...

    You still have my digits?

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    Quote Originally Posted by Kawigirl View Post
    Most improved...I need muscle now C....I've lost 20 lbs and 3 sizes cause of assmunch! You know how it is...appetite is so hit and miss...
    And I just get those sick butterflies when he tries to contact...or scared I'll run into him....

    He came to the gym one day after 3 days of binging...omg...shit show!

    I could use some improvement on my jabs and crosses though....I'm like a T-Rex in Muay Thai...

    You still have my digits?
    you're making me think more about wanting to hurt him... not a good thing, I hit REALLY hard

    you know I'll help if I can... I'll shot you a PM. That POS phone I use to have crashed finally so I was forced into 2013 by buying a smart phone and lost all my numbers in the process.

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    Sorry for just seeing this. I'm very glad you're back! I don't know you, but have read older threads you've commented in. Glad to know were going to have your insight back, we need it!

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    Here's hoping you quickly get back on your feet with a strong mind and an even stronger heart.

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    Glad your back and feeling better. Like tha Avi as well! Now, spend more time here and throw your "weight" around a bit!

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    Glad you are out of that relationship. I'm sure it will make you a stronger person. Best of luck to you.

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    Glad to see you back! Hope everything starts looking up for you!

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    are u taking applications??????

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    Great to see you back! Sorry about the issues and hope you come out of this all a stronger person... with no issues...
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    Nice avi Kawi glad your back

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    *** Note to all members, this is temporary, the KAWI you remember will be back shortly and kicking some serious ass!!!***

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    Anyone else notice the similarities between Milla Javovich and our very own KG?

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    Quote Originally Posted by Kawigirl View Post
    Most improved...I need muscle now C....I've lost 20 lbs and 3 sizes cause of assmunch! You know how it is...appetite is so hit and miss...
    And I just get those sick butterflies when he tries to contact...or scared I'll run into him....

    He came to the gym one day after 3 days of binging...omg...shit show!

    I could use some improvement on my jabs and crosses though....I'm like a T-Rex in Muay Thai...

    You still have my digits?
    It's funny (not lol) how something like that can drain so much of your life energy out of you. Unfortunately a lot of us also try to hard to help save the person but they just keep pulling us down with them. I know all about the Coke issue. My 1st wife choose coke/crack over her new born baby girl also. From 3 month before pregnancy, 100% through pregnancy and 2 months after pregnancy (14 months) she was 100% clean and sober but 2 months after she jumped back on and was gone for over a week with no contact. 2nd time was 6 months later for over 2 weeks. 3rd and final time for me was 1yr when I filed for divorce and didnt see her for a month. Luckily I was not working and able to take care of my daughter 24/7.

    Tried the rehab, pulled her out of a couple of crack houses (scary places) and interesting situations. Positive note she always paid cash for her stuff. I had the bills and receipts to prove it. lol

    I know what an emotional roller coaster it can be when you want to believe in someone and keep giving them 2nd chances. I'm glad to see you got out when you did relatively unscathed.

    Time to focus on yourself again and get your life back on track.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Kawigirl View Post
    Thanks fellow Albertan!!!
    You too are lucky... You guys can hang out you're so close!

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    Quote Originally Posted by frank13 View Post
    are u taking applications??????

    Send to Kawigirl...I'll have my secretary look it over for potential screening..



    and KP...I've never had anyone see a resemblance between Milla and myself....thank you! I'll take as a compliment. xo

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    i accept your apology. now i can get my life back together knowing your ok and alive still

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