Hi guys! A bit of an embarrasing post, but I hope you can shed some light on this. I think my ED is caused by lack of interest and other mental issues, but still would like your two cents on this.
So here goes:
In the spring of 2011 I had only slept with three girls my entire life. I decided to not be a fat 300lbs powerlifter anymore and did the switch to strongman competitions and did some cardio. That helped, as I was able to nail four girls during that spring and summer. Not much, but way more than before.
I ended up getting lipo and was able to add mass while slowly and steadily cut away my fat. Now I'm about 255lbs with visible abs.
From the fall of 2011 and up until today I've nailed 45 women. Seeing how I spent almost 10 months of these two and a half years in a commited relationship that's a lot of girls by most people's standards. In the beginning I nailed average looking chicks for hours but now I am more picky, which is natural I guess.
I did a 16 week cycle this winter with good results. I then met a crazy chick that I had amazing sex with. Funny thing - the crazier the chick, the wilder the sex. Go figure!
The thing is that she was bisexual, but only got romantic feelings for girls. She would fall madly in love with other chicks, but treated guys like garbage. She was only able to kiss me like a normal girl when she was horny, and told me that she had many times thrown up after kissing guys, because it was so disgusting. She also hardly ever went down on me as she just "couldn't do it". For her - guys were only for sex. Basically she only loves girls, but wants a good pounding every now and then.
Still she made me crazy horny. I like small, feminine women and she is only 150cm tall (about 4"11?) and 100lbs. She has a model gorgeous face, long beuautiful hair and a very feminine and style. And her perfume makes me want to rip her clothes off, dip her in caramel sauce and lick her from head to toe. And from time to time I did just that!
When going off roids I told the girls I were seeing that there would be no sex for a while. But I kept the bisexual lunatic close at hand to see if I could squeeze out a couple of more rounds before losing my sex drive. The strange thing is that every time she came over I was worried about not getting hard, but as soon as she came to bed and pressed her body against mine and I smelled her perfume I would get rock hard. When she started screaming and ordered me to spank her, pull her hair etc. going limp during the act was also not an issue, to put it mildly.
I then went back on cycle. What I take now is this:
Testo: 600 mg/week
EQ: 400 mg/week
Dianabol: 20 mg a day
Insulin: 6-8 units a day
Nolva: 30 mg a day
The bisexual lunatic eventually did some stuff to me that was so way over the line that no man would accept it, and I told her I had had enough of her behaviour and never wanted to see her again.
I then stuck to the other girls I was seeing, but the sex has been somewhat uninspired on my part. This weekend I nailed two new girls and I was hardly able to perform at all!
The first chick was a girl that flirted with me on a dating site. We met for coffee and she was bigger than she appeared on the photos, but with a cute face. I had a strongman competition the next day, and I had to get up at seven in the morning and drive for 3,5 hours to get there, so I wasn't looking for sex. I did get somewhat aroused by her big tits though, so i brought her home to watch a movie.
As we were making out in the sofa I got hard and we went to bed. She told me she didn't want sex, only cuddle. After I ate her out and stuck my finger up her ass, I conclued that she had changed her mind and put my semi-erect dick in her. She didn't protest, but then changed her mind as she didn't want sex on the first date. I was glad, as I just wanted her out anyway. And with my dick inside her, it still counts.
So I ate her out until she came and then blew my load in her face and got her on the train home. Then I did something much more important than having sex with her: I carbo loaded and went to sleep!
When I got home from the competition I was so exhausted I threw up every time I tried to eat, but I was able to get down some liquid calroies and went to bed.
The next day I felt suprisingly well though, and even did some light cardio. At around midnight I was getting ready for bed, but a chick started flirting with me on a dating site. She looked hot with a tight body, and even though I was not quite in the mood, I took 50mg of viagra and went to pick her up.
She looked nice in person too, but her face was not as good as on the photos. Killer body, though.
But she had a bad breath and a horrible perfume (the kind your grandmother would wear!)
When we got home I regretted the whole thing, but making out made me quite hard and we went to bed. It got hard again and she rode me for a little while, but she was not even 1/3 as good at is as Bisexual Lunatic Girl. I almost came though and threw her off and fingered and ate her out until she came. We then used sex toys and played around for a bit before having a 69 that made me very hard. I told her to mount me, but now she demanded a condom. I hate those things, as having sex with a condom is like eating a banana without peeling it first!
After putting on the condom I had a really hard time getting stiff. I then got sressed out and embarrased and that won't help either.
After calming the **** down, I got semi-erect and screwed her for a little while. I was so sleepy and tired from the competition that sex felt like a hard cardio workout though. LOL!
When switching positions I got limp and was tired of the whole damn thing so I get her to jerk me off. It was three at night and I tired as a zombie.
I think this is a mental issue, but maybe you guys can see something that I can't.
I've noticed that I am sick and tired of chasing after random one night stands, especially if the girl is average looking. I am also very sensitive to smell and even sent a girl home without sex once because her breath was too bad. The poor girl had just spent two hours on the train to get to my place for a one night stand, but I couldn't force myself to do it. Both of the girls I nailed this weekend had bad perfumes IMO, so that played a part. Also being tired wrecks my sex drive. But in the past I have been able to get rock hard with average looking girls no matter how sleepy or tired I was.
Is this 100% mental issues you think, or am I doing something wrong with my cycle. EQ is not supposed to cause erection problems, from what I've read (unlike tren and deca). Also it seems strange that I have problems maintaining an erection with roids when I didn't even have this issues during PCT.
Should I take some HCG, at 100mcg a day, perhaps?
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Originally Posted by lovbyts
