
Originally Posted by
IRISHxM80
You have every right to be skeptical and I wont say you are completely wrong because you're not. I have no reason to lie; lying is for people that have something to hide. You can ask me anything and receive an honest answer. 8 years after steroids, my testosterone level has now dipped to less than 300. I don't know exactly what happened but something changed drastically over the course of the last couple of years. I legitimately need the assistance. Unlike some people tend to do, I haven't been exaggerating any of my symptoms. I originally started my TRT journey because I had been experiencing so much muscular atrophy and fatigue that I began to question whether I had a terminal illness or not. It's THAT bad. Hell, as if that weren't bad enough, I also went through a period of time that I even started wondering if I had become asexual because I no longer have absolutely any sexual desire . The last 15 years of my life have been dedicated to lifting and martial arts. I also have a career in the fitness industry so, in a way, lifting is my life. When you're putting in just as much work as you ever have and you're watching your strength and physique diminish when you're supposed to be in your prime then you know there's a huge issue. I'm not looking for just enough test to function 'well enough.' I'm not only fixing what's wrong but I'm also looking out for my own best interests considering it's my life and I'm the one that has to live it. I want to be able to continue making gains because that's what makes me happiest. Without the test, I have reached my genetic potential as far as strength goes. If you need proof that I'm not bullshitting then I even have a video of myself hitting a 425 raw bench, at 181lbs, without any issue whatsoever that I can show you as an example. Gains do not happen anymore. It's become a constant struggle to maintain what I've earned. I don't feel guilty in the least for looking for optimal treatment considering I'm trying to live the best version of my life that I can possibly can. As far as the dosage, I completely agree. I already tried asking him to split it up and he threw a fit. Why? Couldn't tell you. That's part of the reason that I'm asking you guys what I should do. I'm intelligent enough to know that I have a lot to learn. I don't think I know everything and I will never claim to. I'm just looking out for myself.