Im make this short as possible... First off every month passes by for last three years I been wanting to post this to get help not only dr help but help from community will its time...

January 1st 2008 I was i was 275 pounds mind you been heavy my whole life so at that point i decided to loose wight so i dieted and dieted hard a year later i was sick no nutrition nothing and i got down to 137 pounds with no muscle mass none i lost it all so i went to a Dr to get blood work he found my test levels at 82 yes 82 witch was due to lack of nutrition so he put me on a androlgel and 5 months after that i was huge wight in at 175 nearly 13% body fat was super happy and i went in for a check up. Dr said you look good and he said i would no longer need the androgel at this point i was bummed out i never felt so great in the gym my whole life so at this point i did research closes thing i found to it was some oil know as test E.... I never knew what steroids really was until then.


So I got a local connection in 2010 and bought my first bottle and started out with that and then few months later found a new source and started with test e and deca will guys scence..

***OCTOBER OF 2010 i have been on test no lower the 500mg of any kinda test Im on tren id say 6 months out of the year nearly did every mix and combination of everything deca dbol tren masteron androl t3 clen primo everything and i haven't stopped scence then i mean never i always been on high dos of test. My blood levels been threw the roof, If seen amazing gains over the year got up to 200lbs 12% body fat and 165lbs 9% body fat I seen it all NOW. I NEED TO STOP I tried recently and within a week i felt like my whole world was just crashing down i mean felt like my parents died i lost my all my money i felt like all this pressure for no reason anxiety went threw the roof i don't know what to do. The DR that i currently have on hold says to stop everything for 2 weeks and he will put me on andro gel 1.62 or some bull shit i don't know what to do i cant go a week without doing it i mean its crazy i need your help please help.