Serious thread.

I've come to the realization that I'm an addict and will be seeking help. Without going into details, my job is on the line and it's either I deal with the abuse or lose my job. This has gone on for 5+ years and looking back, I've probably pissed away tens of thousands of dollars and have slowed my growth both personally and professionally.

I haven't lifted a weight for about the same time period. After being a 6'6" 240lbs+ lean gym addict in my early 20's, I'm hovering around 230lbs and look like a soft big guy. My waist went from fitting into a size 30 pants (extra long length for my height and leg size), I now wear a 34-36 that is tight at the waist but baggy all the way down. Hoping to get clean soon and back to my favorite addiction, I think it would be a good opportunity to see how muscle memory works after all this time off.

Any members want to share their experiences?