I'm not too sure how it started. One friend introduced me to this drug, said it would take away my appetite and make me feel amazing. I was having trouble with my cutting phase back then, so I saw it as as an opportunity to help with that. It did indeed. But now I've found myself addicted to the drug. I realized how much of a problem it had become when it started interfering with my training and ability to eat. I wanted to reduce my appetite, but now I struggle to push down every single meal down my throat, and I have insane cravings, and I stopped for 2 days but then I had to take a small dose even though I REALLY didn't want to because I legitimately thought that I would go insane otherwise.
I don't know what to do. Should I check into a rehab center or something like that? I study biochemistry in college, and it mistakenly gave me the impression that I had 'control' over my drug use because I understood the addiction mechanisms behind it. Never have I been so wrong. Now I have to tell my family as well and I'm scared of their reaction.