I am 6 weeks into my first cycle. 26 years old male. Test E only cycle. 500mg per week. Geneza Pharmaceuticals is the brand. Also taking an AI arimidex .25 eod.
Now I actually haven't felt any of the normal effects you are supposed to have on cycle like strength gains, high libido, ball shrinkage, I got slight acne on my back and shoulders but that's it.
All this lead me to believe that my gear is bunk so I recently took a blood test. A free test, total test, and e2 sensitive test. I am just waiting on the results.
Now something I have recently noticed in the past week or 2 is that my libido has been down, and I am really feeling depressed.... I don't know why. I no longer want to workout, eat anymore, or even go to my job. I don't want to do anything. I just feel sad all the time. It's terrible... This is a major problem.
What could this possibly be? Maybe my test E is bunk so my AI is causing my estrogen to be way too low? Is there anything I can do? Should I take an anti depressant for now?
Need serious help. Any help is appreciated.
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EDIT: UPDATED BLOOD TEST RESULTS:
I only fasted for 8 hours before taking the blood test. I don't know if that had any kind of affect on it
Testosterone, Total: LC/MS 3257.6 High ng/dL
Free Testosterone(Direct): >50.0 High
Estradiol, Sensitive: 50.2 High
Wow I am really surprised.
My total test is at 3257.6, yet I am not feeling the effects. Maybe it just started kicking in?
Also, it my Estradiol too high? Is this whats been causing my low libido and depression? I have been taking arimidex .25mg every other day. Should I start taking .5mg?
I stopped taking my test shots and AI for about a week because I was afraid it was bunk test and thought the AI was just harming me rather than helping. I will go back to injecting today and taking .5mg AI today as well. How much will a week off of injecting and AI affect me?
Tell me what you think of these results.
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7/21: UPDATE: Still continuing my cycle. Have been taking .5g of arimidex eod for over a week. I still feel extremely depressed. Feel like absolute crap. Same feelings as before. Not in the mood to do anything. I am trying to stay strong and continue my cycle but this depression is just too much. I'm taking mood enhancers, 5-htp, anything that can boost my mood up, no help at all. I'm at the point where I'm feel like just dropping out of school and quitting my job because of how depressed I am. I literally hate everything.
Anyone have any clue why this is happening to me?
I am going to get another blood test. Another Testosterone and e2 sensitive blood test.
What else should I include that could tell me whats causing this? CBC or what?
Need serious help..
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7/30: UPDATE: My latest blood test results:
CBC and CMP With Differential/Platelet:
WBC 4.4 x10E3/uL 3.4 - 10.8 01
RBC 5.30 x10E6/uL 4.14 - 5.80 01
Hemoglobin 15.4 g/dL 12.6 - 17.7 01
Hematocrit 44.7 % 37.5 - 51.0 01
MCV 84 fL 79 - 97 01
MCH 29.1 pg 26.6 - 33.0 01
MCHC 34.5 g/dL 31.5 - 35.7 01
RDW 14.0 % 12.3 - 15.4 01
Platelets 238 x10E3/uL 150 - 379 01
Neutrophils 65 % 01
Lymphs 26 % 01
Monocytes 7 % 01
Eos 2 % 01
Basos 0 % 01
Neutrophils (Absolute) 2.9 x10E3/uL 1.4 - 7.0 01
Lymphs (Absolute) 1.1 x10E3/uL 0.7 - 3.1 01
Monocytes(Absolute) 0.3 x10E3/uL 0.1 - 0.9 01
Eos (Absolute) 0.1 x10E3/uL 0.0 - 0.4 01
Baso (Absolute) 0.0 x10E3/uL 0.0 - 0.2 01
Immature Granulocytes 0 % 01
Immature Grans (Abs) 0.0 x10E3/uL 0.0 - 0.1 01
Comp. Metabolic Panel (14)
Glucose, Serum 90 mg/dL 65 - 99 01
BUN 16 mg/dL 6 - 20 01
Creatinine, Serum 1.14 mg/dL 0.76 - 1.27 01
eGFR If NonAfricn Am 91 mL/min/1.73 >59
eGFR If Africn Am 106 mL/min/1.73 >59
BUN/Creatinine Ratio 14 8 - 19
1.00
Sodium, Serum 142 mmol/L 134 - 144 01
Potassium, Serum 4.5 mmol/L 3.5 - 5.2 01
Chloride, Serum 103 mmol/L 97 - 108 01
Carbon Dioxide, Total 23 mmol/L 18 - 29 01
Calcium, Serum 9.1 mg/dL 8.7 - 10.2 01
Protein, Total, Serum 6.4 g/dL 6.0 - 8.5 01
Albumin, Serum 4.1 g/dL 3.5 - 5.5 01
Globulin, Total 2.3 g/dL 1.5 - 4.5
A/G Ratio 1.8 1.1 - 2.5
Bilirubin, Total 0.8 mg/dL 0.0 - 1.2 01
Alkaline Phosphatase, S 61 IU/L 39 - 117 01
AST (SGOT) 29 IU/L 0 - 40 01
ALT (SGPT) 24 IU/L 0 - 44 01
Testosterone, Free+Total LC/MS:
Testosterone, Total, LC/MS 1173.4 ng/dL 348.0 - 1197.0 02
Free Testosterone(Direct) 40.2 High pg/mL 9.3 - 26.5 02
Estradiol, Sensitive 8.5 pg/mL 8.0 - 35.0 02
If you don't want to read all that just skip to the testosterone and estrogen levels. Everything else (meaning the CBC and CMP) is in normal range.
Took this blood test July 27th, which was 1 week after my last pin. I am doing pct soon. I still feel like shit and still feel depressed. So I see that the total test dropped down to around 1100 (which was expected since it was 1 week after my last pin.) And I also noticed my estrogen dropped down to 8.5. Which means my bumping up my arimidex to .5 eod seemed to be working and not bunk. So even with the estrogen low, I still feel depressed. Why is that?
I am running out of ideas here.. maybe it was my free test? Since its really the only thing out of range on my bw? Is it possible its my free test causing my depression? I just don't get it..
Does anyone have any ideas?