
Originally Posted by
Beon
Thanks for the feedback guys!
I should tell some more about my background, then maybe it makes more sense.
I am 52 years. I started working out in the gym around at 19 years old, after military service. I became obsessed with it, studied to become a personal trainer (but never worked as one). I was also of the opinion that most people fail because inadequate volume of food, or not having enough focus to train hard. Did very well with some good progress over the years. Eventually I became over trained because of personal issues (lots of mental strain). I stopped for some years and picked it up again at age 39. My first cycle was at age 44, T propionate 300 mg/week for six weeks, nothing else. During that cycle I had T of 1160 and E2 of 105. I went from 227 lb to 246 lb, granted some of it was bloat. I also felt great mentally; calm, confident, successful, at ease with life. First time in my life I ever felt like there was risk for drug addiction. This experience is what I refer to now when I think something isn't right. I have virtually the same T level now (1125), and I eat virtually the same volume of food. I am not expecting the same result at all since I am older and that was a steroid cycle, but it would very strange to me if I didn't have any results at all. I am expecting some small steady gains.
I have a very active job (carpenter) where I burn a lot of calories during the day, so I make sure to eat a lot. But the main difference from before is that it was a lot easier to eat during that cycle. I was much hungrier. Now I have to force it down. And blood work just came back today, HbA1c is strangely still very low at 27 (31-46), which is normally only seen in people who starve or on a diet to lose weight. It makes no sense at all to have those numbers when I think about how much I eat every day.
I started TRT because I've had problems with dizziness and brain fog for three years, and docs can't fix it. They put me on SSRI's which did nothing. T has been at the lower range for many years, but still within range. But when I measured SHBG for the first time and I saw that it was way over the range, it was clear to me that I have T issues. Like I said before, gym gains is pretty low priority for me, I just want to feel good. But I see gym gains as a sign that T is working as it should in my body. If I make some small gym gains, then T has an effect after all. But I am still dizzy and have brain fog, and I make no gym gains. So my conclusion is that some general mechanism isn't working. Could be as simple as more food as you say. But I'm reaching the point where maybe it isn't worth it, because now food just feels like a chore with no enjoyment. I am never hungry, I always have to shove all this stuff into my mouth. I never had that feeling before, even when I was natty and good gains in the gym, or on a cycle and good gains. Something isn't quite right.
Interesting info. It sounds very counter intuitive, since T is one of the anabolic mechanisms in the body, but I don't doubt that you are sincere. Would be good to find some scientific study on this though, to see the general trend.
I don't use any AIs or SERMs, I'm only on T. I actually don't even know my E2 level, because it is hard to find a lab to do a sensitive assay here, and I feel that E2 is not very important unless it is very low. But when I look at previous labs, I usually have fairly high E2 when I did those cycles, so I assume it is high now too, most likely around 60 pg/ml. As long as I don't get bloat or gyno, I just ingore E2.
So I guess in conclusion, I should try to up my calorie intake further (not sure how though), and at the same time investigate other sources of problems, like sleep apnea, etc.