Ok, so I'm currently dating a really awesome woman who happens to be 5.5 years older than me. She's in her early 40's and I'm in my mid 30's. I've had a handful of serious long-term relationships, but this is the one I get a long with the most, by far. Now after almost 2 years of dating we started having the discussion of having children. I'm not a traditionalist and she knows I'd be ok having kids and not being married (in fact I'd probably prefer it). However the age issue comes up now, and because of her age, she is on a very short timeline to having kids. She doesn't currently have kids, but she did freeze her eggs.
That's not really the issue though... While we love each other and everything is relatively smooth sailing, as a guy, I can't help but wonder how my feelings for her will be 5-10 years down the line. She looks good right now, but she does look her age, and she's not getting any younger (either am I). I feel like if it wasn't for the age thing, everything else would be perfect. I still get checked out by women/girls younger than me and I sometimes wonder what I would feel like if I met a version of her, only 10 years younger. You don't think of these things that much when you get to know someone and you're in the midst of lust and excitement, but as the relationship matures, these things start to come to mind. At least for me.
She told me if she doesn't have kids with me she will have them on her own, probably with a donor, but she said she much prefers having one with me. She joked around and asked "would you at least be the sperm donor??" but she doesn't really just want this. Obviously, with having a kid, a couple would hope that their relationship would last the distance and things would fall into place as they should. I just have such trouble making these types of commitments. I really don't know what I want sometimes. I know my gf would be an excellent mother, she's an amazing person. Beautiful, heart of gold, even tempered, intelligent, hard working, dedicated, loyal... but it's scary as a man knowing that a nice piece of ass can really rock your relationship when you're already comfortable in it and are past the "honeymoon" stage.
In a different world, if we were both younger and I wasn't on TRT, pregnancy would probably just happen and we'd figure things out after. But, with having to plan things and having to go through the horror of getting off TRT (for possibly a year, who knows), it makes me pause and really consider what I want from her, or from life. Damn it I wish things were easier.
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Originally Posted by Test Monsterone
