PCT. I dont wanna fuck up my natural test and also im not sure if such thing as trt exists in my country, maybe only if i completely wreck my natural test. I def dont wanna be my own doctor till the rest of my life, buying test from black market and keeping eye on my vitals stats, as a cycle its okay but for life seems kinda not a good idea to me.
You know, all my life ive been a tall and skinny guy. Really skinny. Im tall and small frame, and i used to be very skinny. Right now im 187 cm 88 kg but im already abit chubby by my standards, 75 kg was my normal weight most of my life. Ive gained abit muscle and alot more fat and im not that skinny anymore. Ive trained alot and i have solid strength compared to average guy, but even now when i compare myself to more muscular guys i feel like im still very slim or so. I just wanna get into shape where I would look jacked. Not huge, but muscular. I dont wanna live and die as a skinny guy

I wanna get a ripped physique, and see how it feels living on that side. Makes some cool photos etc Im not bad looking also if i may say so myself and I feel if i had the physque also, i would get all the ladies. It would give me more confidence also to really aproach the hottest of the hottest girls. Im 30 years old if i dont live now i mightaswell crawl to my grave now.
Anyways, long story short. My plan is to do some cycles, try different shit, see what works for me best, get into awesome shape, live a little. Then maybe find a nice girl and settle down and wont do more steroids. But who knows.
I was thinking next cycle go on dianabol and test, that should be a good combo to bulk up. Not sure about the doses though.