Yesterday i woke up with some kind of severe pink eye in BOTH eyes. when i woke up my eye lids were literally glued shut. no exaggeration at all. eyes puffed and no matter how fast i rub out that eye scum it seeps right back out before i even finish wiping the first away. i look terrible, and i got bright white pimple dots all over my nose. this never happens to me. kinda flipped me out. so i didnt even want to go out. i think its an ancillary product reaction. i can barely read or focus on anything until now. but i been lubing up my eyes with some blue top formula.
i was so bothered and just ready to throw the two days away. so i ordered
1 big breakfast.... scrambled eggs and sausage muffin
2 orders pancakes
2 egg mcmuffins
yesterday and this morning.
one big mac
two quarter pounders
and one filet of fish
both afternoons. no fries and i washed it down with water.
1 grande chicken and mushroom calzone from a pizza joint both nights.
keep in mind i live in asia right now, so my only other choice is some dirty native chicken thats been on sticks all day with rice in hanging palm leaves.
or have Micky D send the goods over.
now i feel like total garbage. i feel like ive done irreparable damage and can never fix it. its just the mindset, when you hate something so bad and you have to give into it.
im not cut up right now, i wont be ripped up for three months, but when im conditioned well, and do something like this, ive made that trip to the bathroom to throwup. just out of disgust and obsession over that garbage being in me and compromising my integrity.