TRT Problems

[timovie]

I have a history of moderate to severe depression for the last 10 years or so ( i am now 39). I also have had many of the symptoms of low T throughout my adult life such as low energy levels, obesity, low sex drive etc etc. During my latest bout of depression, my GP did a testosterone level check and found my levels to be 4.9 then 3.2 on a second test. I have been diagnosed with hypogonadotropic hypogonadism and about 5-6 weeks ago I started on TRT, using 1 x 5g sachet of Testogel (Androgel ) per day. My initial response was dramatic, my energy levels went through the roof, and I just felt generally great. Unfortunately at the end of that first week, I was asked to take a week off work as they were concerned that I may become physically violent ( I think this was an over reaction on their part, however I do admit I was a bit agressive and confrontational, where I am normally very mild, to the point of being timid). I took a week off and felt better than I have ever felt during my adult life. I was just loving being alive, and finding enjoyment everywhere. I also had great energy levels. This response seemed to fade over the following three weeks or so and when I went to see my endocrinologist, sure enough my T level was higher at 7.2 but still not in the normal range ( lower limit of 8 I believe). I was put on two sachets of testogel per day, and ever since ( about two weeks) I have not experienced any of the great mood or energy levels, in fact I feel really rubbish. I am also having terrible mood swings, ranging from feeling quite seriously depressed one hour to being very angry/confrontational then next hour.

I am starting to think that I have only two options. 1. I can stop the TRT and be depressed but mild mannered or 2. I can carry on and feel generally less depressed, but angry and not very nice to be around ( i am already losing friends).

Can anyone offer any advice ? Do you think I am converting the T to estrogen? I believe this can happen. Would this cause the mood swings i am experiencing? Do I just need to give it more time for things to stabilise ? ( I think people at work are beginning to lose patience with me ) or do I need to try a different delivery method ( I have read that injections/implants are even more likely to give me mood swings).

Any advice would be VERY gratefuly received.

[zaggahamma]

i dont point to hormone balance for angry/mis behavior...
also dont understand their concern for your behavior unless something that they picked up....
..the body could convert test to estrogen of course..
injections YES are the best

wish you the best

[zaggahamma]

i didnt notice that it looks like you posted this twice...is this also a symptom?