Hello to all. It's good to be here. I apologize if this has been asked before, but I think my situation is a bit unique, but forgive me if it's not.
I turned 33 years old just last week. For about 8 years now I have been into lifting and fitness in general. I love boxing ... hence my screen name, but I just do it for fun, but it's great cardio and has been a way for me to have fun and still do cardio.
My situation is this. Over the last year or 2 I noticed that I had started to become very aggressive. Not like getting into fights aggressive, but just a very short fuse. I had previously had an issue with anxiety and was even stuck in my home for about 10 years without being able to go more than about a quarter of a mile away.
I finally found a Doctor who was willing to come to my home and she got me to the point of being able to live a life. I now live with my Fiancee' and have a pretty much normal life, though I still am not fond of bridges.
My aggressiveness started at a very stressful time in my life... after I had gotten out of my home, but much of it revolves around the medications I had to take for panic, once the doses were lowered it greatly reduced. This will come into play later.
Over the past year I have noticed that I have just felt very lazy... I always wanted to be doing something, but I felt so low in energy, my body just feels pretty weak, it seems like things hurt more than they used to, I eat the same way but seem to easily gain fat around the midsection, of course I just cut my calories even more to compensate, I told my Fiancee last week that "I just didn't feel good". My vision is starting to also get a little worse which I know is part of aging, but it sucks either way. When I looked up my symptoms, they all pointed to low GH.
I went over my most recent blood work which was done 6 months-1 year ago. My total test was 670, but I did not have my free test results. My most recent free test results are more than a year ago, but they were 1.7 and 1.6 the following time.
Off to searching I went and did a lot on HGH as well as just test and different types of steroids.
There is a history of cancer in the family so any kind of HGH is likely not a good idea and so I had decided against that.
Testosterone Enanthate looked to be like a good idea for a while, but then as I had stated from before with my previous temper problems that was not going to be a good idea either.
Now I know many of you are probably going to say or are thinking that my numbers look pretty good ... I agree that they do. However, here is my problem and another reason I am considering some sort of HRT.
When I was born, my Doctors actually thought I was going to be a dwarf... I had a soft spot in my head until I was 5 years old, I didn't lose my first tooth until I was 8 years old. I was deemed "a slow developer". I was the last kid in school to grow very tall. I didn't reach my current height until I was around 20 years old. While for my size I was considered by most to be a pretty strong guy, my amount of muscle on my body wasn't much and everything I have now I had to work very hard to get.
As a result of some of my slow developer issues, I have scoliosis as well as a bad shoulder that has a misshapen socket that cannot take anymore lifting. I will do push-ups, but can only do them with my hands in 1 particular position and even then the next day I feel at least a little pain.
The shoulder must have surgery (Glenoid Osteotomy) ... where they will basically have to take my shoulder, make it normal and take a piece of bone from my hip to do it. The surgery isn't anything i'm worried about, the recovery will be long and probably pretty painful which is also fine.
What will not be fine is the muscle wasting and fat gain that will happen while I have to sit around and do nothing. If I cannot lift, my test levels will also likely drop more. It makes me sick just thinking about it. I had to lose 50 lbs years ago and I don't want to have to go through with that again.
I am asking for help with what might be best for me. I have had full bloodwork done and am awaiting the results which I should get in the next few days (8 vials of blood they took!!).
Anavar seemed to be a possible good choice because it's very mild, it doesn't seem to cause aggression, some liver toxcidity, which I plan on taking milk thistle and perhaps some others.
My diet is in check with carbs being kept low, protein kept high and fats are all good fats.
I take a Multi-vitamin, ALA, Ubiquinol 200 mg 1x daily, fish oil 3,000 per day, garlic, and vitamin C with rose hips 1000 mg 2x daily.
Please, I understand this is my first and very long post, but I need good solid advice and would like comments from those who have used what I am asking about and/or something else that might be good for my situation. I don't want to take massive doses of the stuff, I don't want to be huge or anything of the sort. I enjoy being thin, lean and fit. Anavar seemed to fit that bill in helping me with my goals especially through recovery. My other question however is would it help with my other symptoms?
Thank you all for any help you can recommend.
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Originally Posted by boxingfan30
