About 64 days ago ago I had my arm snapped in competition. I had to undergo major surgery to correct the 5 breaks. I suffered nerve damage in my arm during the surgery, as well as looking at a year of physical therapy before I can straighten my arm fully.
I train at a gracie barra school, and the people there are amazing. I trust all of them not to wrench my bad arm. With that said I hope to be back training with them in 6-10 more weeks (Depending on physical therapy)
While the physical recovery has been slow and steady, I am not sure exactly how I can recover from the mental aspect of the break. I, as well as several people from my academy, even the reffs who watched the fight, are all gun shy now...
Video at - http://tinyurl.com/fkmyarm
The worse part of all of this, is it fell right smack dab in the middle of my transformation.
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My arms went from the largest point in my life, to the smallest point in my life. Right now they measure about 10" round. I have lost my triceps to the point you can not tell when it engages through the skin. I have lost my forearm to the point where I can not even make the muscle hard.
I can not lift my own arm vertical (Like a jumping jack) not because of motion range, but because I do not have the strength. If someone else moves it, it moves fine.
On Wednesday I am going to what I believe will be my last doctor visit (not counting PT, for at least 2 more months.) I want to be honest with him and say "Look dude, I have 2 bottles of M1T sitting at home, they did great for me in the past and I plan on doing it again.... Unless you can help me" But something tells me that approach just isn't going to work.
Should I be asking for something specific? Can I request a treatment, or prescription? I know its asked a lot probably "I hurt my arm and want steroids" But I am almost 30... I had AMAZING atrophy in my arm, I lost everything. The bone is even clear in my shoulder area....
The pain is gone, I cant wait to fight again, but first, obviously, I need to put some muscle back on...
Any advice is welcome!
God Bless.
-Chris