Originally Posted by
InsaneMuscle
I think I know exactly what you mean... for the last 10 years I've been taking things in life in to a different perspective and approach, followed the crowd of whiners and beggars, trying to "find the reason" for everything that didn't go the right way for me - why it is the way it is and try to get an answer to "master" the said situation, but you know what I have realized? Its so fucking exhausting, when shortcuts to these answers are clearly visible, time and time again see if I would have almost just followed "the gut feeling" would have gone where I wanted long ago, but yet trying to take another route round and round we go until we forget what we're living for, we mix process with the progress in this manner and get stuck in this loop thinking "that's the way things go".
Im tired of this, Im transitioning back in few more weeks. On 1st June I will start my 5 day fast&cleanse like I have explained earlier, after that I will do new diet approach, also I will start pining trt dose after my 5day F&C is over.
I can totally relate to all you've said... I tried just living with it... My ex at the time was in denial(an endocrinologist DR - she didn't want me to go that route(trt) she didn't agree... Wtf excuse me... You see the proof etc - anyway that obviously had to end and for the better - but waiting and thinking my well being was shit man focus/memeror gone, lethargic/feeling like my legs weren't under me/unmotivated for everything/I said enough too I had BW done a couple times to make sure got checked by a doc - primary... But I get it man - I think individuals like ourselves(I'm making an assumption & sorry if wrong) but we tend to think about the other person involved or for what reasons this is happening - pops out at me... I think it's natural unless someone says - piss off lol
If I knew exactly which version of carb cycling you're talking about I would be keen to dig my brain in it and research and try it. From personal experience the diet that I followed for past few months (modified Dan Duchaine's bodyopus / Atkins / Anabolic Diet) although it is hard and exhausting I felt great mental benefit, very decisive thinking and mental clarity at times beyond believe like in my young days, but I see that I have also suffered some sides like minor delusions and loss of memory, for an instance I can not pull the name of the man who built Apple inc. (yes by the time I finished this sentence I remembered Steve Jobs), and although sides are minor the benefits were greater, but I rather have nice balance. I found it is easier to follow 5-6 day keto or longer and if carbs are introduced once a week is not so terrible as 3days on 1 day off, greedy my nature is - little is good = more must be better, but I dont think it was so. I really enjoyed more 5days no carb and 6-7day carb load. Carb load days were not so terrible, it was easy eating anything in site as during these days my appetite goes crazy, I can stuff my face with 10k kcal and want some more before I hit the bed, this is not so easy with current diet approach, so in a sense - you make sense here questioning me, it puts a toll on me, not regards the re-feed but the havoc this frequent re-feed in such manner plays on my brain chemistry(mood maybe).
Yeah sure it's an approach by Marcus it's more of a pricy or prime by elongated the low days but it goes into that - you can also just(I see your very in tune with your body so) try this appraich if you'd like and let me know what you think...
Damn I cant find it hopefully he'll see this ;)
Start w/3Low days @ 40% lower than your normal carb intake... Then 1high go 15% higher than your carb intake... He gives advice regarding its benefit by depleting your glycogen stores before going on a growth spurt of BIG EATING! Your muscles(since depleted) soak up the nutrients and macros like a sponge... I'm just saying what he's already said but missed mostly I missed a lot lol...
I think the hardest thing is when body gets severely depleted by the end of the day #2 and then troughout the day #3, it goes all out of balance and carbUp just messes up all the equilibrium that should take place, so...yes its a mess, I will admit.
Yesterday/Today - I was stronger than my diet, I went and killed it, it didn't exist, I ate food I felt like craving (within range of my fridge of course), and my diet is not proud of me now, and also by this time I almost feel like carbs dont want to hang around me anymore, I literally feel no pleasure for any foods, look at foods as a fuel source and I no longer give a shit what its made off, as long as it doesnt turn my mouth and nose inside-out I can stuff myself, and I guess its a good thing, I dont know, its new to me and I dont mind it if its some sort of side effect from whatever I do :D
Today I took my 12.5mg clomid again, like I said I find my forehead and hair oily by the end of the day, I shower and scrub real hard twice a day morning and night, however, some acne (very minimal) would come here and there but go away quick. Testes had grown in size and for the past 10+ days ALWAYS hang low/lower than before. Havent been horny but had no reason, busy with business and work in general, maybe thats all.