Please check out my ridiculous pics and give me advice PLEASE

[Toenail Juice Z]

Please be patient and read what I have to say before giving me any advice.

As you can see from my face in the picture, I am very DISTRESSED. I've been busting my ass in the gym for over 2 years, and have nothing to show for it. What's worse is I had a bodyfat test done and the results came out a wopping 26.5% bodyfat (I couldn't beleive it, so basically if I lose the bodyfat, I will just be the 154lb skinny cunt I was 2 years ago before I began lifting. As soon as I saw the pictures, I have never been more depressed in my whole life. I've decided to fork out some money and hire a personal trainer because I must be doing something wrong!

All the dbols, testosterones and decas have just made me look like a fat monster!
For 2 years I have never done cardio, because I was trying to bulk up by using 3 sets with heavy weights. BUT LOOK WHAT IVE GOT TO SHOW FOR IT.

What bothers me is my diet has nearly always been clean, but I take the antidepressant anafranil which has a bad side effect (gaining weight). I'm not sure however if that is where the problem is. WHERE DID ALL THIS FAT COME FROM?

I have no cuts, no definition whatsoever except from when I'm pumped up after an intense gym ssession. I can't beleive that my chest doesn't even show when I'm not pumped up!!!!!!!

Anyway my stats at the moment are 5ft 11" 26.5%bodyfat, and 209lbs.

I need all of your expert advice. Please comment on my ridiculous body and tell me what options I have at my disposal

Discrace me if you want, after all I deserve it. I love bodybuilding though and I don't intent to stop!

(BTW in the second picture I am not tensing just relaxed)