My name's Jarrett, I need your help.

[tanSOLDIER]

Hello, I'm kind of new to this -so this is what I'm goign to do. I'm going to tell you all the truth, and perhaps some kind souls will give me their expert feedback.

For most of my life I was fat and at my largest -I was 16- I broke 320lbs. I battled for several years to break my old habbits, change my diet, learn the pleasure of working out and at my best I was down to 220lbs; mind you I'm about 6' 2". I was quite happy to have done it on my own, and to continue the fight down to become who I invinsion myself to be, who I want to be. Then my fiance got pregnant, and I stopped working out and started taking care of her. I gradually stopped losing weight and began maintaining. Then we lost the baby and all hell broke loose. I guess in my depression I fell into old ways, into what I knew to be safe. That was a year ago now, as of Aug 9 -and my life is just starting to turn around again. I got a job loading trucks for Target. I'm about 270~280lbs now, if I had to guess, though I could grab a scale when I'm home. So, here I am, turning 24 in a month, a year gone since I would have been a father, and Im trying to get my life back. I didn't just lose the life I was making, but the life I had worked so hard for. And I feel like I wont make it back on my own.

I've wiki'd anabolic steroids to hell and back, so I've figured out some things, but nothing coherent. Just all jibberish and chemical equations: which are sweet, but not helpful to my newb self.

So, here's the question. In my quest to get back in shape, get back my confidence and be as sexy as I want to, are steroids a reasonable option to help me get there? If so, what should I know about them other than the side-effects the media keeps trying to cram down my throat? Where can I get them as a resident of the USA? Do I have to use a needle? I mean I'm down for it, but Ive never given myself a shot, hate to do something stupid and hurt myself.

Yep, I'll leave it at that. I'm good to anwser any questions if I've left out relevant information.

[tanSOLDIER]

Ok, so I've found some interesting options browsing through the forums, though no decisions yet.

The T3, Keto, Clen looks interesting. Though I noticed a lack of anything for muscle growth. So perhaps someone knows better?

[Jfew44]

I'm gonna be honest with you bro, steroids are not for you at this point in your life. Realistically, you should be below 15%bf. You cant ask for sources. Yes you'd have to use a needle. Look at the diet forum and ask some questions there first. Good luck

[stpete]

Welcome man, and sorry to hear about your loss. I suggest you research diets and workouts first. You need some time under your belt in the gym getting familiar with weights and a routine that works for you and your goals. Juice always takes a backseat to diet and workouts. If you don't have those down, gains will be minimal and why bother? Keep researching and good luck to you. You can learn everything right here.

[Kale]

Dude I feel for you believe me, I know what its like to lose a child, my daughter died of a Brain Tumor when she as just three years old. As the guys have already said, steroids are not for you at this stage. You have to get your head straight, get into a good diet and workout routine and move on from there. You can do it, you have already done it once. We can support you with diet and positive encouragement, but trust me, steroids will do nothing for you in the shape you are in at the moment. You also need to educate yourself, this will help you do that http://forums.steroid.com/showthread.php?t=331179

[FullMoonHowlingWolf]

Welcome to AR and I'm sorry to hear about your loss. There's a lot of great info on this site and plenty of members with experience to share in order for you to achieve your goals. Stay positive!

[tanSOLDIER]

I appreciate all of the positive feedback; thank you for your support in regards to my loss. I perhaps made some improper insinuations, so let me reiterate a few things in very concise statements. The reason for the story is to express why I've considered synthetic aids to my goals as opposed to slaming this down myself -not to express my current state of mind. I am a strong, intelligent and capable person: I'm not looking for a miracle drug or a way out. I've coped with what's happened, and now I'm ready to focus away from that sorrow and that train of thought and start thinking about myself again.

I enjoy excersize and dieting comes easy to me when I'm working and not at home with nothing to do. I'm a boredom eater, but I am entirely capable of adjusting my diet and workout routine. Working loading trucks has got the ache out of these muscles, has got me back into the routine of working out, and the weight will go with it.

Now, I've seen one direct anwser -a goal of 15% BF to consider steroids- and that's a start. That is the kind of information I need. I'm looking for why's and how's, what's and when's. I'm asking to be armed with knowledge so I might know what part steroids can play in my workouts and physical growth and when to maximize their effect. Why, for example, 15% BF and not 10? or 20? Just a matter of fat people usually being lazy and without working out suffering adverse effects or is it somethign chemical?

Arm me with understanding friends, and thank you again. Your advice will prove to be invaluable.

[G4R]

Welcome aboard, you seem to have the right attitude towards all of this. Just read, read, and then read some more.

Good luck and BE CAREFUL

[Jfew44]

I said 15% to start considering. The general consensus is 12-13%. Certain kinds of steroids convert to estrogen. This is bad if you have a high bf%. They can lead to high blood pressure, which is very bad if your levels are already high. Vets or more knowledgable members can help you out more tho bro, I just know a few reasons

[tanSOLDIER]

I said 15% to start considering. The general consensus is 12-13%. Certain kinds of steroids convert to estrogen. This is bad if you have a high bf%. They can lead to high blood pressure, which is very bad if your levels are already high. Vets or more knowledgable members can help you out more tho bro, I just know a few reasons

That makes sense -I've become more familar with the adverse effects of estrogen. Thank you.

Now, can I find a simple and effecient way to test my own BFI?

Well, nevermind that, I'm sure google will help me.