I am at my breaking point! Same problems different day!
5 months without one drop of alcohol not even for fun
mother lying in bed dying and all i can do is watch
5 months of dieting
Working out 5 days a week without fail no matter what
WHY?
One more set? WHY
Pick up the heavier Dumbells. WHY
what difference does it make that I am not a lazy drunkin lard ass, she still picked HIM
what difference does it make that I am dedicated to taking care of my body and NOT afraid to work hard for things I want, she still picked HIM
Its my own fault for caring , for not givign up cause she has addictions
Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on ME!
This is the second time I fell for her words of wanting a life with me only to her the phone ring again to tell me "I can't do it" Telling me to just forget her
Now I just want a drink to forget!!
THE BOTTLE:
the bottle will make me forget........
the bottle will get me through this endless nightmare of a day
the bottle will ease my heart just for one minutes peace.......
The problems will still be there in the morning
Then I will feel worse for giving in to that bottle

FVCK the bottle.....
I will do ONE MORE SET
I will lift the heavier dumbells.....
not for them.....not for you
But for me DAMMIT !!!!!!