It sounds like you've answered your own question, my friend. I ran an 11-week test prop/var cycle my for my first and hit HCG at 1000 IU week 5, then 500 IU per week until the end of cycle. That being said... as soon as I started my clomid/nolva pct, i took a lay-off from the gym for two weeks and ate like shit thru the holidays (regrettably). When I got back to the gym near the end of week 3 in the PCT, I had almost no endurance in my muscles and I had lost considerable strength and size. (almost to pre-cycle levels)
Hell yes, same experience.
MY experience was... freaking out about the losses and busting my ass in the gym again with determination to get back to cycle-level strength by the end of my time off. My strength is still there,
I can still rep 315 for 10 on bench and squat 405 with ease, but I was even stronger while on... But it's not as easy as it was
. I'm now 3 weeks removed from the end of my PCT and I am almost there. I went through a couple of weeks of mild depression (feeling sappy about ex girlfriends and the like) and stunted sex drive, but it's all raging back now. Like I said, I'm nearing cycle-level strength barely 3 weeks removed from PCT.
Yeah, maybe the strength, but what about the size? And the ex-girlfriend thing, I hear you. I hate caring about that kind of thing
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What I'm taking from this is: the HCG helped keep my boys working... the pct re-started natural production, BUT it still took some time for my body to get through the estrogen rebound and back to homeostasis. As evidenced by the amount of acne that came on strong during PCT, the body went through a major hormonal shift. It takes time to rebound from that and that was an 11-weeker.
I experienced a major onslaught of acne during my cycle, especially at the high doses, and now it's clearing considerably during my PCT.
What you did was a 20-weeker and it will likely take a little longer for you to bounce back. Make sure you're running that HCG. It's cheap and effective.
Quite honestly... if I can run 11 week cycles, and get back to CYCLE level strength at some point during my post-PCT time off... I've won. Just because you lose gains right after a cycle doesn't mean your muscles are not ready to get them back. I'm making all this progress after taking two weeks off from the gym during PCT and eating like shit during that time.
Reduce your cycles to 11 or 12 weeks. I'm feeling almost better now than I did on CYCLE because I'm almost back. Just think what my 2nd cycle will be like... I might hit 400 lbs on the bench press!