Do me a favor, spend a couple of minutes a day, when you get in your car, when you go to take a shower, etc.... Just say "God, I don't know if you are out there, but I need help getting my life straight. If you are out there, give me some direction."
PTbyJason

I am going to give this a try, put it on my list of things to help me, along with quit using pot, and starting and ending the day with Yoga.

Tock, I am looking into the Unitarian church, I have found one in my area to go check out. It does look like it aligns with my current thoughts.

Thank you both, this is why AR is my favorite board!