I am on optimist. I have to be. I did ten years in prison, got out, never called or wrote anyone that i was out. Was working in two days. Made over 70k my first year out. have made more and more ever single year. I have been out for ten years. I do not work for anyone. I have a beautiful family and a wonderful life. I can;t find anything to be negative about. If it is to be it is up to me, so I own my failures. Sorry for the dissertation.