
Originally Posted by
JiveTurkey01
You don't want to play "games" but you can't stop with the height jokes ffs so what do you really expect?
BTW I'm sure this is difficult for your brain to understand but its not a napolean complex its a tall man complex. If you grew up with 4 older brothers, all 6+ inches taller than you, you don't actually feel short from it (well some people do). What happens is they beat your ass a lot, but they also let you win just as much. So you grow up thinking you can take anybody.
That is an aspect of my personality that is impossible to change and you view it as an insecurity but I view it more like a fake security (sounds the same to you sounds different to me =]). Or maybe I did develop a small man complex idrfk. Cause when I had to serve time, I gave lots of big guys attitude when they tried to push their weight around, and naturally I got my ass kicked most of the time. But I also learned to fight pretty well due to this (imo). My real advantage is my ability to take a serious and I mean serious beating while still fighting as dirty as I possibly can. The harder you punch, the harder I will bite at your nose/ear/fingers.
I think that is why we have never got along. You view my tough guy attitude as a sign of disrespect just cause I'm small and you expect otherwise, maybe it makes you feel small cause a small guy isn't afraid of you and doesn't kiss your ass. But you can't get mad at me for it if you understood how many beatings I had to take just to earn confidence in myself. People are the way they are.
If you want me to stop fvckn around I don't really care its not a big deal. I keep coming back here because I feel I deserve an explanation. I show'd you nothing but respect on the day I was banned and you had it out for me over slimmerme which provoked me to call you out in that moderator thread and you don't see that. You saw one incident than another, not seeing they were all tied together directly. I did not randomly mosey on into that thread and think "oh heres marcus let me fvck with him cause I have nothing better to do". You know you had cracked a height joke a few days earlier and I did not know why untill I find out slimmerme went and told you about the family thing.
But the thing you DO NOT understand, is still till this day I have no idea what I ever said to slimmerme. No I do not use drugs & I have been clean for 10 years. But I am on cozaar which causes short term memory loss and sometimes rebound blood pressure that irritates me. She pm'd me one day telling me she didn't appreciate me talking about her family. I was completely dumbfounded and offended by the idea that I said something so ignorant/hurtful w/out remembering it. I simply responded something like "I have no idea why I would even say anything about your family, can you please copy it for me?"
I THOUGHT I was nice about it. She apparently pulled some high and mighty shit and tattled to you w/out even considering the possibility I would have gladly apologized had I said something like that. All I want to know is what I said, and I will leave you alone. If you *really* want to stop the games, you have to know what I said, I know she told you, and if you can tell me specifically, I will leave and never come back.
I am an asshole sometimes yes but I don't think I'm better than anyone. The fact is if I hurt someones feelings I feel bad as fvck about it and I will obsess about it. Neither you or slim ever even tried to talk to me about it. And thats why I keep coming back. You want honesty there you fvckn go.
Tell me and I will leave, thats a promise.