Well, this is going to make me sound like a pvssy crybaby. But, all my life I just never felt good enough. I was always wicked good at sports, but never number one..After highschool I got out of shape, started drinking a lot. One day my buddy was like, "you are really gaining weight fast" and it made me realize i was getting fat. I fvcking hate the idea of ever being fat. Started running a lot, running turned to lifting, lifting turned to lifting heavy, and that turned into a lifestyle for me. But i started later than a lot of my friends, so they still have more size then me, and I hate that. a lot. I hate not being number one. Absolutely cannot stand it haha. Plus, im 5'6, pretty short. So if I can't grow any taller, I'm going to grow wider..But, its just never good enough for me. Even when I reach my weight goals, never enough. And now im bulking so hard, my tummy fat is gaining, and that drives me nuts. Hate when my abs become faded. Just never good enough.Originally Posted by dec11
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