Seriously you really need to man up. My girl didn't want me doing it but I told her I was. I make the money and provide for my family and I make my decisions for myslelf at the end of the day. If doing gear means that much to you then talk to her about it. Show her the movie bigger faster stronger and fill her in on the facts. That juice isn't as bad as the media and your local idiot thinks it is. If she's still not down then you have to break up with her and go do juice or not do it and stay with her. Sneaking around on roids will not end well. I know the first thing my girl would say is why the **** are your balls so small and when you shoot loads on my face about a quarter of the amount of jizz is coming out! Lol. Good luck bro.