I was in the same boat as you trust me I know no matter what we look like we're always going to see ourselves as chubby my mistake I made was the first three years I did this I was going to calorie deficient

Don't be in a deficit eat a little above your total daily expenditure but keep the calories clean

In my mind what happens is this I look at eating above my maintenance as something I don't want to do and when I do eat clean above my maintenance, I say oh well fuck it I can eat a little junk food I just ate 500 to 600 more calories than I really wanted to might as well make it work

But I put up these big green poster boards in my room and they are reminder to me when I wake up in the middle of the night looking to binge to just go back to sleep

For where it's worth you have really nice arms nice overall development and shape I really think you have the genetics to do what you need to do naturally