Honestly bro, people who don't know shit about this lifestyle and don't lift don't understand and will simply never understand.
This is something most of us here live for... At times, if u think about it, it is like an addiction... You go nuts and lose your shit when u don't lift and see them gainz popping out. I simply would kill a few clients right off the bat if I wasn't able to go to the gym daily and unload all my stress and frustration at everyday life stuff.
And about the PEDs, let's face it, we all take the supplements and try our best to protect our livers, kidneys and other organs but we know deep inside we are fucking some shit up and just ignore that lol.

At the end of the day, u only live once and you gotta do what makes u fucking happy and enjoy it while it lasts... Look at Kobe Bryant, he did not plan to wake up and die in a helicopter crash at 41... And take his daughter down with him...