Originally Posted by
Viking13
Marcus keep your head up man. You'll pull through this and come out better. The bloodwork is no doubt a stressful issue to deal with. I've been through some very similar issues in regards to worrisome bloodwork, albeit probably for very different reasons. Another story for another time.
I wrestled and played football growing up and in college man, cut weight in college from around 220 to 189 and 197 depending where I was needed. I'm sure that has done wonders for my body now lol. During that I started training judo and then found Brazilian jiu jitsu back in 1998 and trained like a madman and competed like one as well. I never stopped lifting. Then I decided to start powerlifting in 2010, because how could it go wrong? Effectively never giving myself an offseason for the past 18 years, genius move. Two years ago I cut from 210 down to 177 for the pan ams to compete, that's when I pulled my groin off the bone, but I was determined to compete, so I partially tore my left groin, I became a spectator at the event since I already bought my ticket prior to the tears.
So, I upped my test and got semi healthy, got my elite total at 198# several months later, got back to Bjj and partially tore my groin again running some sprints.
What's my point? Point is that making hard decisions to benefit your health suck, but are absolutely necessary. I've had to let go of being the bad ass Bjj player, and hell it's hard because I'm a part owner of one of the best mma gyms in the region, but I can't train like I want without sacrificing my body anymore. It's not worth it, it's all or nothing for me. When it affected my ability to play with my kid I knew I had to make changes, painful as they may be.
We all probably have body dysmorphia to a degree, regardless of how far we've come, that's why most of us started lifting in the first place. You're never going to be just "another guy". No matter if you drop 20-30 pounds you're still going to be larger than the vast majority.
The training, maybe more rest days between session are in order, not like mentzers recommendations, but more recovery time for your body between such intense sessions. Maybe shorter cycles of intensity in terms of weeks coupled with 2-3 weeks of lower intensity and volume.
Hell man, I was frightened to start back with HIT, all these injuries I've had and still battle, I wasn't sure if it was a smart move and I'm still not. However, I took this week off to make a plan to cycle the training with more down time and trying to instill a better way to auto regulate my body.
Lifting has always been my first love, it's been my best friend when I've called upon it everytime and taught me more life lessons on how to persevere than anything else I can think of over the past 25 years.
Chin up brother, take some time and get things where you want them and don't be too hard on yourself when you have to make those tough decisions. Life is not a matter of holding good cards, but sometimes, playing a poor hand well.
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