Hey, this is my 500th post, I am now a member!
Теперь настало время для празднования. С чем? Водка Конечно !
Wow.... I remember monitoring the accounts and her cell phone record.... trying to track her down.... Thats no way to live, trust me I know.... once you set yourself free of it, you will feel relieved beyond belief.
I mean, I am all for making things work and trying your hardest I mean shit I am big time against divorce but sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. Thank God I wasn't married just with her for 5.5 years.... and only the first 3 years were happiness.
Worst thing that ever happened to me.... and to have to walk away from the women I loved, the women I would die for.... Almost was not acceptable I was going to kill her dealer..... seriously, literally kill her.... My best friend in the whole world was the only one who could talk me down. I tried to help thought I could change her.... I am amazing persistent and talk for a living I can usually manipulate any situation to my favour if I choose, and for the record I never do that with people I care about.... only in business. I thought she would change but as my friends who struggled with major drug addictions themselves in the past told me.... she can only be helped if she wants to help herself. In the end I guess she never truly wanted it.... She was the first and only women I have ever loved.... she was the light of my life, the joy of my world..... the reason I got out of bed in the morning and she took it all away. When I found out she was on it for sure and so you guys know, it was Meth.... I fell down to my knees in the middle of a road at night at work with 2 guys I worked with. I was crying as the anger built.... then I decided to play punching bag with a big ****en tree and gave it 5 shots from each hand..... lets just say the tree won and the next day my hands were mush!
Anyways, my point is, I know what its like Haz and you don't deserve it.... I am damaged forever because of it and the longer you drag it out the longer you will be damaged and the harder it is to ever come back from it. I am still working and thank God my current GF is amazing and Loves me and understands how I am damaged and I struggle everyday to recover and Love her how she deserves to be loved.... I don't use it as an excuse but she is 100 times my ex GF and she deserves to have me look at her the way I use to look at my ex.... now when I look at her she just sees empty, because I am afraid to commit and let myself be hurt ever again.....
I guess in a way me telling you guys this, I too am asking for words of wisdom.... if anyone can offer ideas for me to combat this and learn to love my GF how she deserves I am all ears.
Thanks for listening. I know I yapped for a long ass time there.
Bert its 3am, so its too late to send a pm at this time. When i remember tomorrow i'll send you one, im good with stuff like this. Calg will vouch for me on that
Just to let you fvkers know, iv'e made the decision that im coming off my meds. Going to talk with doctors etc. so i may need your support if its not too much to ask from my fellow whores
Night Fella's
I just want you all to know I will be joining the 3K club tomorrow.... Good Night![]()
about time you wuss. :P
drive by slutting!!!!!!!
was busy all today, a friend of mine i've known since i was 8 came down for a visit.
a few yrs ago he went to BC for work.
i kinda realized how different we are...he just wanted to drink and party and be smashed...he got mad as hell when i told him i had to go train.
and when we were hanging out, he got PISSED OFF at how often i had to eat. he said my life was a pain in the ass, and that it's useless.
i dont think i'll probally be talking to him ever again. kinda sad actually.
People change and move apart Nic, just life![]()
i think im hard
Ernst is thinking of buying a new toy...
A drastic departure from previous...
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i dont like it daddy! i cant pee!
When you buy a gun in the US, depending on which state of course, is the serial number always registered to the buyers name?
This place really isn't sexy without me and ghetto... but more me.
is it me or have half the tags disappeared?
... yup defiantly not sexy without me.
First time I'm on in 3 weeks and this place is stone cold dead.
my titty itches
Oh and good afternoon to all you bastards and weirdos
Afternoon Tiny Fvkers
Hey you filthy fvcking sluts.
And yes swifto does kill kittens. Spread it around.
Cal is lurking
Quick run and hide
*hides behind one of cals fatties*
*hides behind a skinny girl* ... yup im safe.
Pheeeewwww....I dont think he saw us.
You shouldnt be watching.... fvkin perv![]()
Tuesday morning and Im Back like a vertibrae... you bitches in trouble now.
Shut the Fvck up KP!
Hehe, no i kid.
Whats up my sexy Canadian?
Not much Rosey... back at work... put on 9lbs in 6 days... really feeling like a slob this morning... yourself?
got to step out for half hour. later whore sluts.
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