Ok Im back being a loser scrub posting here.
I go out and this guy starts talking my ear off. God damn. The pu$$y voice in my head doesn't let me break away from him. The pu$$y voice is that voice you hear that wants you to take the easy road. This guy chats my ear off for 2 hours and introduces me to other people who chat my ear off for another hour. If theres anything positive that comes out of this, they love me. They tell me how great I am and all this shit. You know how people drinking are especially the married or older types who aren't there to **** necessarily.
Ok so i hop to another bar, and I see this girl that I started to run game on but stopped a couple nights ago. Shes hand in hand with the guy who broke in right when I was starting to get her eating out of my hand. I broke my game off because she got into a convo with him and said "you still have my number right..". I just couldn't bring my A game to a bitch that random dude at the bar has ****ed previously. So I see them and they obviously are back to ****ing which is fine im glad my perception instincts are that powerful. Shes giving this vibe off too. This she wanted to **** me but is acting scorned type vibe I dunno. You know how stupid some girls are. **** it.
So this 19 year old might be going on a date with me tomorrow. I invited her for sushi and she said "Ok.. maybe.. let me see when I get up tomorrow". But damn. Im feeling depressed.
You know I used to be heavy into the bar scene a few years ago. I mean I would go out and knew a lot of high rollers and some hot girls and whatnot. But its a ****in pain at times, depressing at times, and im already seeing the same people each and every time I go out. Theres so many bullshitters as well. Every time I go out someone is claiming they're a millionaire. Its like yeah well buy me a ****in drink then buddy. Ok so anyway my dejected feeling ass is out for tonight. Love to all.