Sigh...another blind date failure..
Alright, I've been in this dating game now (since my divorce) for about a year, and some nights I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OVER IT!
My buddy hooks me up with a friend of his, beautiful girl...absolutely beautiful. However, it's yet another blind date.
So to break the ice a little a couple friends join us for dinner. Well, I should have learned by now that this is NEVER a good idea. For some reason or another I always end up feeling like the date is paying more attention to the other guests than she is me. Maybe it was just in my head (not that I crave attention) but when I'd ask a question and she'd answer looking at one of our guests and not me, I kinda started getting the hint.
Sigh... Just need to vent. Its weird how I put soooooooo much energy into training hard, eating right, taking care of myself, etc - yet I seem to walk around with the self esteem of someone who's overweight, pale, boring, etc. Like a constant battle forcing myself to believe I'm not that guy....
The worse is of course when tmrw comes if I find out she did have a good time and liked hangin with me - I'll feel on top of the world. I hate being so shallow.... :frown: