im 1 month in to my 3 month journey of not being able to lift due to a bulged disc
just went to my doctor for my back and i have mixed feelings he basically told me to keep doing what im doing and that my progress for 1 month is good also he told me that when hes explaining the recovery he uses generalities because he doesnt want to be held to a certain amount of recovery time i think he could tell i was getting somewhat frustrated since he was talking about a years worth of time recovering when i was planning on 3 months and i finally got him to admit that in my condition and the way things are going he does believe theres a good chance the recovery will be 3 months but that could change
basically im feeling kinda disapointed that it wasnt like wow your movin right along and should be good in 3 months but i guess i should have known better than for the doctor to tell me exactly what i wanted to hear especially when i know he doesnt want to sound to promising due to not wanting me to get overzelles and do things that could hurt it again
this bulged disc is pretty terrible and i hate watching myself lose progress that i worked so hard for but the pain is becoming much less and i try to reasure myself that everythings going to work out
none the less its a painfully slow and devestating process i dont really feel like myself not being able to hit the gym and be in the shape i want to be in to be quite honest besides just not being able to go out too much because of this i dont even want to go out to much because im embarassed i look like a skinny guy its almost like i wish i could be invisible for the time being
dont want to sound like to much of a bitch or get to deep here so i guess ill stop myself here dont hurt your back ppl its a steroid forum and usually ppl just try to talk kids out of messing up their hormones but just as important dont mess up your back ill never do squats or deads again only very few doctors are willing to reasure me in the fact that i will be able to do everything else i want to do besides those 2 lifts once i recover but most just say well have to wait and see without giving any real answer so its pretty difficult going through a process like this without knowing that youll even be ok afterword in the first place makes you really makes it hard to keep a positive attitude
i try to keep positive by imagining myself 8 months from now bigger than i was before the injury and totally pain free loving life in a sick trance club being proud of my physique once again