Antonio Butcheros

Hi people,
I have always trained hard with only supplements and i was 19 stone, back in 2008 i broke my neck c5/c6 and left with a spinal cord injury, after spending 9 months in various hospitals & rehab units i was then put back into the community being self reliant. I was very very desperate to get back to my normal self, which i now have come to terms with that i will never be like again. I have been training again in my local gym as i do my own physio. November 2011 i done a 6 week course of Deca & Sus 2ml a week then for 4 weeks then jumped back on the juice for another 6 weeks, i feel stupid now for doin it but i was desperate to get back to normal.

I didnt even do PCT after the 1st course as i was new to all that, not even after the 2nd time round even though i was advised to by a very well known body builder. Since janruary when i came off it i am not interested in sex at all which is very out of character for me. I want kids as well which is another worry for me as i dont know if ive killed off my strongest of swimmers. Can anyone advise me of what to do? or am i to late? will my natural harmones kick back in at any point because at the minute (with all jokes aside) i feel like a school girl and not a popular one for that....

thankyou very much