have been away for a while... this PCT is killing me!

[Danbrooks2k]

**** you Clomid!!!!

Well I have officially retired from doing any "acting" in adult films, I am moving to Russia in 19 days to marry my fiance who is also retired from adult films... I own a few adult websites and she works for a brazilian company called Tromintina that makes high end kitchen stuff.

I admittedly extened my cycle a little long because the date we had planned to meet for a vacation in finland had me smack dab in the middle of PCT and I really really wanted to have some real knock down drag out sex. I decided that the holidays would be a good time to clean out my receptors and I planned on staying clean until the early part of summer.

Clomid is a great drug, it gives me huge loads and helps get my antural test working again... but until now I didnt realize what I mind **** it can be.

I am away from the woman I love, and we have only ever had mild problems in our relationship and I know in just 19 days we will be together and happy... but everything else tells me to be sad, and paranoid and impatient and jealous... I swear I am pretty normal, but this stuff has got me acting like a woman... I ltterally cant get a hold of my emotions... I see a ****ing hallmark commercial and I want to take a bath with a razor blade...

Is this normal? Ive used it for PCT many many times ... always taken it at night 100mg for 30 days and never had an issue... but I have usually been single or in a nice relationship

But during this really rocky phase in my life this clomid is killing me, I am sure its not the Nolvadex 20mg ed ...

So today my friend who dosent really juice ( just once ) seriously suggested that I do a shot of prop and stop the clomid and PCT for 19 days... He thinks that I will be so happy to be with her everyday that the moodyness or depression from the clomid wont be nearly as bad...

I took the shot and wont take clomid tonight and I hope that tommorrow I will have a better day...


I thought for sure I would be the last guy to ever come here crying like a bitch, I have never understood those kinds of posts.... Until Now...

so if anyone has any advice, I am all ears... and my advice is this dont take clomid if you are in a bad or difficult situation relationship wise... it seriously will just get alot worse... resolve the issue and then take the clomid...

anyone else ever deal with this shit?

[nrobleski]

how far you into clomid pornstar

[Danbrooks2k]

about 2 weeks bro... I took 100mg of prop today and plan on taking 100mg ed for about 21 more days... once I am in Russia with my little angel I wont have the panic I am getting now...

she made one joke with me today while we were chatting with each other online... and I nearly started crying and I have had more thoughts of suicide this week than I can bear...

I am a happy person normally, and I am not only miserable but I also hate myself like this and am embarrassed becasue I am staying at my best friends house...

[nrobleski]

why not ditch the clomid and do letrozole or Tamoxifen,,,that will kill the head games and get your natty test going again

[IanMazia]

I swear I am pretty normal, but this stuff has got me acting like a woman... I ltterally cant get a hold of my emotions... I see a ****ing hallmark commercial and I want to take a bath with a razor blade...

Is this normal?

Dan, let me be one of the first guys to welcome you back to the boards and tell you that what you are feeling right now is completely normal. What you have to realize is that this PCT feeling with clomid is merely temporary and will go away if you follow your protocol and stay the course. If not bro, you could slow down your recovery process and prolong that feeling of depression. I can completely relate bro because everytime I would jump on clomid for my PCT, I would tear up everytime me and my girl would have a fight...it was bad! But we've all been where you are at right now and just know that it will get better!

[nrobleski]

and for gods sake stop being such a pussy,this girl must shoot sparks out of her ass or something, for a guy who screwed girls for a living you sound pretty depressed you should come do my job

[kaberle_15]

about 2 weeks bro... I took 100mg of prop today and plan on taking 100mg ed for about 21 more days... once I am in Russia with my little angel I wont have the panic I am getting now...

she made one joke with me today while we were chatting with each other online... and I nearly started crying and I have had more thoughts of suicide this week than I can bear...

I am a happy person normally, and I am not only miserable but I also hate myself like this and am embarrassed becasue I am staying at my best friends house...

You are going to see her in like 3 weeks man theres no need to think about suicide. What a lot of people forget to mention about these drugs are the emotional side effects that come with them and its just a phase. If you are normally a happy person then you should be mentally strong enough to fight those horrible thoughts and look forward to seeing your girl.

In the mean time you need to focus on other things. Go chill with your best friend or build model planes or something man lol

[Danbrooks2k]

well imagine having the smartest most beautiful but also modest and down to earth girl in the world... who isnt a think like american chicks... she would do anything for me... and she may not shoot sparks out of her pussy, but its so good that I dont miss porn at all...

and I love her like nothing else in this world ...

I appreciate the advice, I will just stay on the prop for 21 more days and deal with PCT after that but I will get some letro, more nolva and I may need to cut my clomid doseage...

I would really just push through this depression if I could, but I think at this rate i am going to **** my life up really bad... so I think just a 3 week delay is the lesser of 2 evils

here she is by the way ( with me and also when we first met when she had red hair )

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[Danbrooks2k]

thanks for all the support too guys...

I mean suicide??? WTF I have never even given it a second thought in 35 years... its like the clomid just put that thought in my brain against my will...

also I have 3 weeks of serious buisness to complete before I go, it was just bad timing on my part... but it should be resoved in 3 weeks

[orton4]

what would the point of shooting the test prop for 21 days? wouldnt that just suppress the test again? then your back at starting pct again, right... or did i miss read it?

[donveto]

Dude CLOMID sucks, but amn it made by boys come home.. I just finished my first cycle and PCT wrapped up about 3 weeks ago now. During my PCT I was calling my mom twice a day like a little girl. hating myself over everything..2 days after I stopped I felt like the clouds parted- my life is great . Now I know next time that after 30days it gets better, but when your going though it you feel like " oh shit what if I never feel good again"

hang in bro!

[orton4]

does nolva produce any sides comparable to clomid ive started my pct of nolva and hcg and i been starting to feel like blah nothing real bad but i was curious

[IanMazia]

does nolva produce any sides comparable to clomid ive started my pct of nolva and hcg and i been starting to feel like blah nothing real bad but i was curious

Nah...you won't feel the estogen like side effects of Clomid when using Nolva and HCG...well at least I didn't

[BG]

Congrats to you and Mary Poppins.

[orton4]

yeah i didnt come across it in most of my research im probally pissed im not injecting test prop into my muscles ne more

[Danbrooks2k]

hey there Guns, thanks for remembering her name... I almost forgot about that old porn thread I started...

yeah I already feel fine after about 48 hours of no clomid and I did the prop 8 hours ago...

Yeah I hate to delay the PCT but I am going to have to learn that me and clomid just dont mix anymore, so I may even go 4-6 weeks on the prop... I ended my last cycle properly so adding a few weeks to this on should be fine...

I mean its better than staying on year round I guess...

I sent her an email with an appology for being a little clingy latley and I think she really didnt even notice ( I tryed to act all happy when I talked to her on the phone these last weeks )...

well I am looking forward to waking up with a big day 2 prop erection in the morning... fortunatley I own just the website to fix that problem... Hee Hee

[IanMazia]

... I almost forgot about that old porn thread I started...

How could you forget that thread bro...that is by far the best literary work I have read in a LONG time!

[Kale]

So let me get this straight. You are on PCT and you took a shot of Prop to make you feel better ? You have got to be kidding !!! And also you better delete the pic with the Nipple in it dude, or the Admins will delete it for you

[kaberle_15]

and for gods sake stop being such a pussy

I guess it's true, you are what you eat

[orton4]

So let me get this straight. You are on PCT and you took a shot of Prop to make you feel better ? You have got to be kidding !!! And also you better delete the pic with the Nipple in it dude, or the Admins will delete it for you

thanks Kale i thought i was the only one to notice the starting of test prop!

[BG]

hey there Guns, thanks for remembering her name... I almost forgot about that old porn thread I started...

yeah I already feel fine after about 48 hours of no clomid and I did the prop 8 hours ago...

Yeah I hate to delay the PCT but I am going to have to learn that me and clomid just dont mix anymore, so I may even go 4-6 weeks on the prop... I ended my last cycle properly so adding a few weeks to this on should be fine...

I mean its better than staying on year round I guess...

I sent her an email with an appology for being a little clingy latley and I think she really didnt even notice ( I tryed to act all happy when I talked to her on the phone these last weeks )...

well I am looking forward to waking up with a big day 2 prop erection in the morning... fortunatley I own just the website to fix that problem... Hee Hee

My favorite thread of all time....good stuff.

[BG]

By the way fuc clomid, shits no good. Aromasin and hcg.

[orton4]

bigguns what do you think of hcg and nolva?

[Danbrooks2k]

yeah Bigguns, I actually have 50 grams of clomid on its way to me... and I am going to flush it down the toilet... nolvadex, aromisin, hcg whatever...

I really want to go natural all the way, but I would like at least one more summer of juiced ripped hugeness before I go that way...

[IanMazia]

I really want to go natural all the way...

Being natural is way over-rated

[Carlos_E]

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