Due to serious anger issues, I have to consider not using tren although I'd love to see the results as I start peacking. I'm using test prop and masterone both at 100 mgs daily and all is generally cool until a stresser comes my way and I feel murderous rage. I noticed this little punk ass 19 y.o. kid watching me throughout my training yesterday. He approaches me an initially respectworthy tone refering to me as "mr." tellling me he wants to get bigger. He seemed sincere at first so I gave him good advice (given my time-constraints). Six meals a day, 200 gms of protein split over six, plenty of carbs, do basic excersices with volume and research it online but most of all, just do it. He seemed disatisfied with this and then he started telling me these insincere BS things like "my boy" over there (a personal trainer) says that I should eat 2 meal a day and drink beer for carbs. I said, go for it my boy. Before leaving the gym, I get a call on my cell and it's my girl giving me shit about the fact that the company I work for hasn't paid me in 3 weeks (can you imagine that) and that I need to quit. I explained why that doesn't wash, etc if I want to get that money and about loyalty and how quick things can change in this biz. I go back to my napsack and my sneakers which, were tied onto the top "handle" were missing. WTF right? I know I have no evidence that it was that punk ass little twit but I kept getting these violent fantasies and I obsessed over it all the while telling myself that I can control my anger and just don't think about it.....etc. Everyone says that you the choice to respond to aggressive feelings is that of free will but I truly fear that if this kid looks at me the wrong way I'm going to snap. I feel like I can't trust myself. So I'm going to excercise my free will and go to a different Bally's for a while and avoid that potential situation. Furthermore, I'm going to forgo tren because afterall, a mans got to know his limits. I'm ashamed to admit my anger control problems but I'm wondering does anyone else here have problems like this?
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