First off, hello! I have read a few of the stickies but I am still confused and have questions. I am 36, 6'4" and at 271 lbs. I am currently until BJJ for the past 3 years. I am however at a point that I am tired, un motivated and just overall depressed about my weight and performance. I seem to yo yo in weight quite a bit. I recently joined this board to find answers and gain knowledge. I am really hoping that steroids will some how help me out. I am looking for strength, endurance, weight loss and aggresiveness. I have only touched the tip of the iceberg reading stickies and trying to decipher the magical formula. I would really hope and appreciateif I could get some opinions fromveterans on what is really needed and what not. I apologize for so much reading but I am really anxious and hopeful of what is to come. Once again, THANK YOU for any help!!!!