Ok i have been reading the forums for a few weeks and want some advice...
im a 32 yr old mail, 5-7 158... Im sorry this is a bit of a long read but i want to give details, i figured worst case scenario nobody will reply.
However, it might make some noobs think twice before doing gear without researching it thoroughly so maybe it can have a purpose...
When i was in my early 20's after a couple of years of light gym , i was still just a pretty skinny kid that was not getting results, this was due to a lifestyle that in retrospect its no wonder i didnt ger results, and a total crap diet or lackthereof. Then i started getting signs of a beerbelly, and found myself newlysingle for the first time since high school, and long story short a friend of mine got relatively big in a short time, i inquired within and bim bam bum i was talked into doing juice without really knowing ANYTHING about it and just taking this kids word for it, who really had no idea what he was doing either i think.
I remember doing a couple of months of test/deca, i never got HUGE, again cause my lifestyle was not exactly an athlete's, however i def got major gains, something like from 149 i went up to 164 which for me at the time was just huge lol. No PCT, i was pulling major ass at the time, and then found myself in the unpleasant situation of limp dick a couple of times, lets just say at the WORST time possible. Months of embarassment and insecurity followed, but slowly i started getting my mojo back. However for the next few years i was on and off in the gym, my 164 turned into 165avg of just an out of shape bodu, i used to try all kinds of diets to try to get back to my skinny self, and i have to say, in retrospect... My sex drive was never the same as before. i got married, i would have sex with my girl not as much as i would have liked to but we banged, but in my head there was always a feeling that somehow my steroid use had affected my sex drive. I also started putting on weight, got up to 180 at one point, not quite FAT but very bloated looking, i wasnt even jerkin off and would sort of have to psych myself up into having sex with my girl unless i was completely bombed which made it a bit more effortless. I started being concerned about this and started thinking I had low testosterone, and that at some point i was going to have to go to a dr and deal with it. Fast forward, got divorced, newly single living in South Beach, started sort of working out, shed some weight, but my erections when with girls were just not right. Either weak or just not lasting. I believe this started being a psychological thing, this was just like a year ago. I got the courage to go to a Urologist, i walked in the place, the girls at the front desk asked me "what is the reason of your visit" and i was extremely embarassed and said " i want to discuss with him possibly low testosterone levels", then they told me my insurance wouldnt cover this and i just walked out.
I went home and after a bit of internet searching i found an australian company that sold a topical testosterone cream and i figured id give it a try convinced low test was my problem, and it worked wonders but i felt like it was a very temporary thing that i was going to have to go to a doctor to fix.
I saw an ad in a local mag for Testosterone therapy and i scheduled an appt.
I went in to this dr s office and thought... hmmm something is kinda off about this place... Dr gave me a check up, asked some questions i told him about low libido, and his "assistant" kept asking me about my "training routine, what my training goals were etc". They explained to me that i would get a blood test and then they would figure out the appropriate treatment. I said "cool" took my blood test and teh guy told me my test levels showed in the 600-700 range. This kinda blew my mind cause i was expecting really low results and i thought, Great now they are not going to prescribe me anything. AU CONTRAIRE, they called me in, at this point the dr is completely out of the picture and im dealing with basically this guy that tells me that i can get most kind of steroid i want legally through prescription, he suggested a cycle of Test/winstrol, and i went along with it cause im not going to lie it sounded like what i needed. I thought, Hey , im going to do this, get ripped, my test levels will go up, i'll do proper PCT, and i'll be all fixed! Once again kind of dumb about the whole thing but i m not going to lie i felt like i found a legal source and scored....
I did about 2 months of win/test taking anazstrozole, then i did 30 days of just test, then coming off i kept taking anastrozole , did hcg and clom following the "dr assistants" dosage. I was told this was a pretty light cycle and that i would just lean out, i was already down to 155 before dr visit i shoudl mention, gained like 10lbs of muscle, felt AWESOME for the first time in years, started hitting the gym 3-4 times a week, things went pretty smooth. I finished my cycle in august, my sex drive never really dropped, until a few weeks ago i started getting some gyno symptoms and i have been taking letro for a week and now im sort of losing my libido, im hoping this is temporary but im about to switch back to anastrozole cause this letro is making me feel awful.
SO. Questions... Should i expect my sex drive to go back to what it was before the cycle, or can they actually be stabilized now???
I no longer trust this "dr" for anything except supplying me stuff, cause his advice on the letro was completely off compared to what i read in this forum.... Are these "legal steroid drs" a common thing???? BTW dont bother asking me for source cause i will not reply
Once im done with the letro this week i have a month supply of anastrozole, how long after im done with that shoudl i go in and get a blood test to get a real reading?
My main concern is my sex drive. I want to make sure i dotn compromise my libido, im going to get some cialis to get through this letro phase but im curious to know if anyone knows of anything i can do to level it out, or stabilize it so its that of a normal 32 year old???
And i should say, im now about 158 i look better then i ever have, i have been working out and im really tempted to do a new cycle next year (in a few months) but i want to do something safe i m really going more for a ripped look then meathead, whats something that will give me results without too many crazy sides?
SORRY about long rant some advice would be appreciated!
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Originally Posted by CHUCKYthentic
