hi all ... i am new to the forum and yet not new to steroids...however i havent done anything in about 10 years... i used to get great results.. although not a bodybuilder.. i am now turning forty and getting married.. i have let it go a little and would like to get back some of the old glory but have become afraid of my own mortality for reasons unknown to me... i think because of the lack of testosterone in my system as i have been aging... anyway i intend to do two cycles in the next year and want to know if anyone can recommen safe cycles first for muscle gain without crazy water weight and the second for anabolic gains and leaning out prior to my trip.. i used to take test enanthate and dbols.. but dont know that i woudl do them at this age.. have never tried deca durabolin but have heard great things other then erectile issues... have never really gotten what others did from winny either.. but maybe that is the way to go.. i am 6ft 5 and weight 270lb i am a couple months of cardio away from being lean enough to hit the beach but would really like to look less then my age for the wedding photo album and truthfully if i works out i would like to keep it as part of my regiment of aging with all my faculties.... i never really have felt as well as i did when i was cycling for nearly 13 years... i have no health issues and have a friend who is a doc and is willing to monitor all aspects.. sorry so long just really giving this alot of thought and need your expertise.. thanks in advance..