Backstory and bloodwork: http://forums.steroid.com/showthread...ons-about-TRT.
Let met preface this with saying I've had OCD since a very young age and have had issues with depression and panic attacks in the past. I haven't been on any pysch meds in over 3 years. And though I do feel depressed sometimes, anxiety isn't something I experience regularly.
On Thursday, after consulting this forum many times and my doctor I finally began TRT. I basically wrote my own prescription, the doctor even asked, "so when do we follow up on this?". I got my first shot of 100mg of test cypionate from a nurse but my doctor is cool with me injecting myself. I felt great on Thursday, had lots of energy hours after the shot and immediately came home and had sex with my girlfriend. Sex drive is something I haven't had for a while so I was really happy.
Friday and Saturday I decided not to go to the gym just yet because I had a sleep study calibration I had to go to Saturday night and I wanted to go in "normal" meaning not exhausted from lifting. So today was the first day I have lifted since my injection. Also I should mention I felt amazing the day of the injection and "good" on Friday and Saturday (meaning my usually fatigue was almost 100% gone). Today (Sunday) I don't feel as good as I did the days before.
However, as soon as I got the gym it was amazing, I was able to lift more than I normally do and the normal aches and pains in my joins and muscles were just gone. All the weight literally seemed to glide up and down. My heart rate seemed to go up a lot though which is not something I'm used to. I felt ridiculously energized and was going from set to set having to force myself just to stop and "rest" even though "resting" usually meant me pacing around the gym.
I came home and was still feeling very energized, about 30 minutes after being home I still hadn't calmed down and started having an anxiety attack that almost escalated into some panic. Lots of thoughts poured through my head about having to stop TRT if the anxiety continued and how disappointed that made me feel because I've been suffering for months and was really hoping testosterone would relieve that. I'm prone to anxiety when I take drugs which is one of the reasons I have been sober for years.
I just got done meditating in an attempt to calm myself more, right now I'm feeling way better than I was an hour ago.
My current thoughts are maybe 100mg all at once was too much and even though it's been over 3 days my T level is just too high and lifting some how caused adrenaline to spike which induced anxiety? I'm thinking on this upcoming Thursday to cut my dose in half and do 50mg 2x a week and see if that helps.
Has anyone ever had a similar situation like this and if so what was your solution?
I just started this treatment and I really don't want to have to stop before I even get tuned in![]()